will i break the unbreakable?

[ether_ryath]

shannon told me something very important tonight. i have power over her. i dont want it. she said that i have the power to fuck her over. i dont want it. i mean, i like having the ability to make her laugh and smile, but why would she say such a thing to me? is she trying to hint at something i dont know? it hurts sometimes thinking about if i ever

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curisng anger to clear head ahh that feels nice

[obsidianlashes]

ok how the fuck is it possible for you to go from who you were when u got out of my car to this. i mean shit, i ask you to tell me things and obviously you dont tell me a whole lot cause... well shit. and as far as the whole fucking me over thing, its not that big of a deal, a conversation arose and that came out of my mouth. yes, jon, anyone you let get close to you can fuck you over-but ive been fucked over b4 and if it happens again i can deal like i always have. no, im not saying i expect it- so dont start thinking that shit. and what the fuck is this giving up on me shit, what the hell does that mean- you have days where u think we are fucked? well, damn i mean we havent even been going out a month and u already think that-thats not good.
and u see me as a pessimist. yes soemtimes i am, but not always-often a realist i realize that u think you are the only one who can survive in an ancient world (by the way this is coming out cause of the title of the entry), but in an ancient world many of us owuldnt be what we are today-keep that in mind. as it is, we are all surviving in this world-granted some better than others- but just remember when u say those things it discredits people-like me- and thats irritating cause it automatically puts me on the defensive.

ok thats about it- hopefully both of us have got some of that cursing anger out
muah jon
**shannon**

Re: curisng anger to clear head ahh that feels nice

[ether_ryath]

ok hold up wait and listens. cease stop desist. u mean to tell me when a day is just fuckt, (im not talking about u and me) just a day when the world seems to take a giant shit on you, u never thought of how much it would suck for it all to end? cmon. and what r u talking about? going from who i was in ur car to then? i didnt change. there is a reason why i put some things in my journal for some to see and why i only will talk about some other things with you alone. as far as the discredit part goes, what r u talking about? do i think i am the only one who can survive in an ancient world? no. i think that i do hold myself to higher standards and i think quite a bit of myself. but in truth, i do not think i am better than most others. sure i would say that i am better than some people, but thats not really saying too much when u look on a global scale is it? obviously you have much anger within you for me for some reason and thought that i had had some too. this was not the case. i wasnt angry, i was only expressing some shit in a fucking journal. nothing more nothing less. its as simple as that. if i have something really important to say i usually say it to the person or persons involved. i have never ever thought of honestly giving up on you. why would i? i have thought about how it would be really bad if it cam to that, and i have thought about how much it would hurt to break up with you, but only because, deep inside i dont want it to be, and it haunts me. believe me. i havent thought about actually breaking up with you. have you thought about it for me? do u harbor much anger towards me? what is the problem? i do tell you everything. i keep nothing from you. the thing i was ytalking about last night i will tell you when you get here today. keeping things from you is not something i do, i may delay what it is that i will tell you, but never keep it from you. muah muah muah shannon i love you

-Little Jon