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My raw emotions are making me completely and brutally honest. Seriously I feel like I'm on my period or something...the way my emotions are swinging back and forth. Tonight we went to church to pray and stuff and afterwards Bro. Moran came up to Michael and was talking to him about how he(michael) is no longer involved in youth....It really irked me for some reason: michael shouldn't have to go to youth, right? I mean seriously, He's gonna be 21 this august...definitely not youth group age, right? Well, those were my initial thoughts...but after I thought about it for a while I realized that the source of my anger/frustration/hurt (?) is that I stopped going to youth before Michael and no one came up to me and talked to me about it. Not one person has been like "hey, haven't seen you at youth lately....what's up w/ that"-or however they would say it. No one has said anything...but not even a month after michael stops, people are wondering and asking about him. Seriously, I feel so out of place right now. I wish I was at home in MN where I knew my place and people knew and loved me. I want my friends, I want my prior involvements, and I want to be needed.