TGIF
I hit ignore when Rach called yesterday. Michael asked me why and I couldn't really tell him so I made up some pat answer about how I was enjoying my time with him...the truth is that I really didn't want to get through an awkward convo with someone I used to be best friends with. Ever since I moved we talk less and less, and when we do talk I don't know what to say...everything I say seems stupid, everything seems boring. It feels like we don't have anything in common. It makes me sad...It makes me want to go home.
I am so frustrated with myself. Michael wanted to hang out with me but I didn't want to do anyting. I wanted to hang out at the house...but it probably wasn't best for us to hang out at the house by ourselves...so he left. And now he is going to youth...because I didn't catch him before he left the house to tell him I was sorry and that I really did want to hang out with him, even if we did do something like go to borders or walk around the lake. And now I am crying becuase he is gonna go to youth...even after I called him and asked if we could hang out. Why am I such an idiot sometimes? way to go Bethel, WAY TO GO!
I am so frustrated with myself. Michael wanted to hang out with me but I didn't want to do anyting. I wanted to hang out at the house...but it probably wasn't best for us to hang out at the house by ourselves...so he left. And now he is going to youth...because I didn't catch him before he left the house to tell him I was sorry and that I really did want to hang out with him, even if we did do something like go to borders or walk around the lake. And now I am crying becuase he is gonna go to youth...even after I called him and asked if we could hang out. Why am I such an idiot sometimes? way to go Bethel, WAY TO GO!