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[etheleats]

I don't know why I've been exceptionally 'on edge' the past few days. Blame it on the female hormones or  not, a lot of annoying things have been piercingly prominent, more than ever. People and their antics and their attitudes are getting to me; I don't enjoy classes or being in school as much as I did previously. I don't know if it's just because of the fact that we have been having pretty busy class schedules of late, or just because I'm in a new group and have to get readjusted to certain dynamics. I just really don't appreciate having self-centered people in my group; in reality, no one works like that. You don't call dibs on f*ckin' machines even before you've prepped all your things necessary for you to make use of that machine. You do NOT wait around (like a damn spoilt brat) for the assistant of the week to replenish ingredients that you need for yourself if you are clearly free and the assistant is clearly drowned in trying to satisfy everyone's needs and handling his/her own work. You do NOT order people around, unless you are the head chef of a restaurant in which case, you would not need to be in culinary school. You do not use other people's things without prior consent and then simply place it back at their station all dirtied and soiled. You certainly do not clean your little station and pack your things and leave without offering any help in terms of reorganizing and cleaning things for the team. I don't understand this kind attitude of being so self-centered, is it not human nature to just want to help and lend a hand in general? You see someone struggling, you offer some help especially if you have nothing else to do other than to pack your things, get changed and leave for home right?!

So jaded with being around this kind of negative energy/attitude every single day.

on top of all of that, i miss so many things that I left behind in Cornell and in Singapore. I feel so distanced from everything I ever felt close to right now.