1 week down, 2080 to go.....
Well this week was my first week back to work and it was a tough week. I found myself at least pre-occupied enough while at work that I didn't weep all day, though some people wondered what was wrong with me that I didn't cry. I don't know what to tell people I am just not an easy crier.
Leaving for work was the hardest, and not because Ethan would cry but for the exact opposite. I know it sounds retarded, and if he had cried it would have been harder I am sure, but since I was leaving him with daddy or gramma he would just wave me out and go back to playing. That hurt a little, I know it only means that he is comfortable with the people in his environment and that's a good thing, but it kinda made me feel like shit.
All in though it was doable, I would rather stay home with Ethan until he moves out of the house but unless I win the lottery that isn't going to happen. I am so tired no though, I mean getting up before Ethan so I get ready and have some time with him in the morning, and working a 9.5 hour day to come home. cook dinner and do bath and bed with Ethan since it's really the only thing we do together all day was really exhausting. Then on top of it I am up with him sat ans sun too. No more sleeping in for me!! Oh well, I guess this is the real life of a move in 2008 so I may as well get used to the raccoon eyes!!
So I am off to bed, Ethan and I have some shopping to do tomorrow so I want to get a good nights sleep. No napping for me on the weekends, only cleaning the effects of having a 32 year old man and a 1 year old toddler in charge of the house 4 days a week!! Thank God my mom comes on fridays and gets my cleaning started for me!! Gotta love that! Thanks for the clean undies mom....a little weird though I thought once I moved out of your house you would never see my underwear again!! LOL Oh well whatever I will take all the help I can get!
Leaving for work was the hardest, and not because Ethan would cry but for the exact opposite. I know it sounds retarded, and if he had cried it would have been harder I am sure, but since I was leaving him with daddy or gramma he would just wave me out and go back to playing. That hurt a little, I know it only means that he is comfortable with the people in his environment and that's a good thing, but it kinda made me feel like shit.
All in though it was doable, I would rather stay home with Ethan until he moves out of the house but unless I win the lottery that isn't going to happen. I am so tired no though, I mean getting up before Ethan so I get ready and have some time with him in the morning, and working a 9.5 hour day to come home. cook dinner and do bath and bed with Ethan since it's really the only thing we do together all day was really exhausting. Then on top of it I am up with him sat ans sun too. No more sleeping in for me!! Oh well, I guess this is the real life of a move in 2008 so I may as well get used to the raccoon eyes!!
So I am off to bed, Ethan and I have some shopping to do tomorrow so I want to get a good nights sleep. No napping for me on the weekends, only cleaning the effects of having a 32 year old man and a 1 year old toddler in charge of the house 4 days a week!! Thank God my mom comes on fridays and gets my cleaning started for me!! Gotta love that! Thanks for the clean undies mom....a little weird though I thought once I moved out of your house you would never see my underwear again!! LOL Oh well whatever I will take all the help I can get!