rough morning
ok so the weekend was... it was good... fun and exciting... possibility of getting a job at applebees with kacey... sounds awesome... moved some shit into kacey's old room... go me! anyways this morning has been horrific... i got up and left for stop and shop to get some guarana soda and they didn't have ANY in stock... lame... well wayne will have to wait... and then for breakfast i got a revive vitamin water and a monster regular... not so tasty as a lost energry drink... anyways... i had a promax bar when i got here just balance out a bit... and my stomach went crazy... i had a sandwhich not too long ago but it doesn't seem to be helping too much... i had some rough things happen this morning in the bathroom which is an area of concern and i called my doctor but i couldn't get a hold of him just yet... I'm leaving work at 3:15 to make it to my dentist appointment seeing as its probably the last one i will have before my insurance runs out... all in all today is been terrible and I just want to go home get stoned and pass out... its been that kind of day... the weekend didn't really help things... a mixture of good and bad.. a lot of thoughts going through my head and a lot of shit going on... i realized that it is going to be a little weird living in kacey's old room and staying with uncle mike and max... i feel like I am a burden that he shouldn't have to deal with... plus i guess I'm having last minute concerns about moving... i mean i worry that if i move down there and something happens between me and samantha that nobody will want to hang out or be friends any more... like i could be outcasted really easily... i don't have many friends in maine so it wouldn't be too different but what if that happened... why am i such a depressed emo loser... its sad when you are so emo that your girlfriend makes fun of you... I guess i could spend my days with max LAN style with all my computers.. they will be my friends... what the hell is going on?