Life goes on
So work has been crazy all week. Here is the run down of my schedule.
Monday- 10.5 hours 10:00am - 8:30pm Went in late because I had to replace my two front tires, Davanna left early because her oldest sun got bit in the face by a dog
Tuesday- 14 hours 8:30am - 10:30pm
Wednesday- 11.25 hours 8:30am - 7:45pm Davanna didn't come in because she spent the night in the ER with her youngest sun having asthma attacks. Left because I had to watch new episodes of lost and Alias w/ Andi and Mikey
Didn't fall asleep until 3am because I wanted to play my piano so bad but the pedal was broken
Thursday- 9 hours 8:45am - 5:45pm So went in this morning. Had a long talk with Davanna about getting payrolls under control. Encouraged her to get it together and scheduled a meeting for us in the morning to meet and get everything organized. Told her I wouldn't give up on her if she didn't give up on me and trying to get the Sh*t together.
Go to leave tonight and Brian (CEO of the company) says he is going to walk me down. So I get paranoid and think, fuck I'm in trouble.
So we get in the elevator and he asks how my day was. I said frustrating trying to get Davanna situated, dealing with all my stuff, plus everyone asking me to do twenty million things at once. Told him about the talk I had with her. He says, "Well Tammy (the other head officer) and I are very happy with you. You have done so much in the two months that you have been here. You have been catching all of Davanna's mistakes and going above and beyond your duties. I just want to let you know that we are letting davanna go tonight. I just didn't want you to come in and her not be here and you get upset. We are paying her to be the manager and you are the one managing everything."
((( THE BOMB DROPPED )))
I started crying. I didn't mean to. I just felt so upset. I have been working my ass off and I like them being proud of me but I want them to be proud of the job that I am doing. Not for catching someone elses mistakes. It makes them love me and hate her and I don't want that. Plus the fact that she is a single mother with two boys. I felt so bad. I had put all that time and effort talking to her and telling her that she could get through this today. So now there is all this guilt that I am feeling. I didn't do anything wrong and she was fucking up a lot of shit. I just hate to see someone get hurt especially because the boss doesn't think that person's standards are as high as mine.
So now I am completely warn out, exhausted, frustrated, and wanting to cry. I know she is at home crying her eyes out right now. I still love my job and most the people there, but there are just some things about corporate america that is just inevitable.
Please Please someone leave me some of your good news from the week or a friendly hello. I really need it. One more day and I'll make it through.
So friday night- SG and Leminey Snikit's Series of Unfortunate Events (sp?!?!?)
Miguel, Mikey, Andi, Snake, Me, Fairfax, Jamie, you are all invited, I mean commanded to attend. Call me.
Saturday- Juanita you and I are having brunch saturday morning and maybe doing something afterwards. You better make time for me.
Snake- you have been so good to me lately and helping me out while I work these long hours. I love you so much.
Monday- 10.5 hours 10:00am - 8:30pm Went in late because I had to replace my two front tires, Davanna left early because her oldest sun got bit in the face by a dog
Tuesday- 14 hours 8:30am - 10:30pm
Wednesday- 11.25 hours 8:30am - 7:45pm Davanna didn't come in because she spent the night in the ER with her youngest sun having asthma attacks. Left because I had to watch new episodes of lost and Alias w/ Andi and Mikey
Didn't fall asleep until 3am because I wanted to play my piano so bad but the pedal was broken
Thursday- 9 hours 8:45am - 5:45pm So went in this morning. Had a long talk with Davanna about getting payrolls under control. Encouraged her to get it together and scheduled a meeting for us in the morning to meet and get everything organized. Told her I wouldn't give up on her if she didn't give up on me and trying to get the Sh*t together.
Go to leave tonight and Brian (CEO of the company) says he is going to walk me down. So I get paranoid and think, fuck I'm in trouble.
So we get in the elevator and he asks how my day was. I said frustrating trying to get Davanna situated, dealing with all my stuff, plus everyone asking me to do twenty million things at once. Told him about the talk I had with her. He says, "Well Tammy (the other head officer) and I are very happy with you. You have done so much in the two months that you have been here. You have been catching all of Davanna's mistakes and going above and beyond your duties. I just want to let you know that we are letting davanna go tonight. I just didn't want you to come in and her not be here and you get upset. We are paying her to be the manager and you are the one managing everything."
((( THE BOMB DROPPED )))
I started crying. I didn't mean to. I just felt so upset. I have been working my ass off and I like them being proud of me but I want them to be proud of the job that I am doing. Not for catching someone elses mistakes. It makes them love me and hate her and I don't want that. Plus the fact that she is a single mother with two boys. I felt so bad. I had put all that time and effort talking to her and telling her that she could get through this today. So now there is all this guilt that I am feeling. I didn't do anything wrong and she was fucking up a lot of shit. I just hate to see someone get hurt especially because the boss doesn't think that person's standards are as high as mine.
So now I am completely warn out, exhausted, frustrated, and wanting to cry. I know she is at home crying her eyes out right now. I still love my job and most the people there, but there are just some things about corporate america that is just inevitable.
Please Please someone leave me some of your good news from the week or a friendly hello. I really need it. One more day and I'll make it through.
So friday night- SG and Leminey Snikit's Series of Unfortunate Events (sp?!?!?)
Miguel, Mikey, Andi, Snake, Me, Fairfax, Jamie, you are all invited, I mean commanded to attend. Call me.
Saturday- Juanita you and I are having brunch saturday morning and maybe doing something afterwards. You better make time for me.
Snake- you have been so good to me lately and helping me out while I work these long hours. I love you so much.