Here comes the year of the dog.
Here comes the year of the dog. I love dogs, they used to be my favorite animal when I was a kid. I used to pretend I was a dog and bark at my classmates, especially at the girls I liked. Maybe it’s a sign this year will be a good one. Oh wait, I don’t believe in signs.
I decided to stay in with the family this year when the clock struck twelve. My family and I are notoriously non-exciting when it comes to holidays. I spent the new year curled up next to a Stephen Hawking book listening to a Curb Your Enthusiasm marathon on TV when I realized that it was 12:02. Oops, Hey guys its midnight, I yelled out. I was going to meet up with people afterwards but living so removed from the inner city, I was just too lazy to go out.
This entire past year has been marked in laziness I feel. Or if laziness is not quite the right word here, then lack of motivation is. I haven’t pushed myself as much as I wanted to last year. My excuse is that last year was just one of those years: chill, down-tempo. A time to incubate, kind of like those unproductive periods in the career of artists and mathematicians.
It’s been a year where I have really had to pause and ask myself where it is I am going, now that I am poised to start my career. If I am going to shift focus in life from academicia, an environment that I have known and loved for the last seven tears, to that cold cruel working world, then, shit, it only makes sense that I consider my choices and attitudes as meticulously as possible. The truth is I am quite done with school and ready for work. The caveat is finding the type of work that will keep me happy, interested, that will provide for enough mobility. All of these things that impossible to guess. I may as well just jump into the pool, that is how I will learn how to swim, so to speak.
The good thing is that I have also spent the last year building up inspiration. Building up enough energy so that (hopefully) blaze through these last six or nine months of school and set my working world on fire.
This year has also been important in one other way. Old friends have always been of immeasurable importance to me. But the source of much of my support and happiness this year has been in new friendships forged. I had to be a recluse in 2004 to focus on school responsibilities. And the hard work then allowed me much more time in 2005 to branch out into the real world and not only meet new people, but really know and love those who I had already met.
It started this past summer, when work actually afforded me a leisure time. And I have to say I have met some incredible people. I am speaking specifically about many of the people that I have met in San Diego this past year. I won’t mention any by name because there are so many great people to appreciate. They know who they are. I also feel lucky because I already know some of these friendships will be kept for life. I’m privileged for that.
So that’s the end of the old year. As for the coming year, there’s no way I can project myself that far. But hopefully I’ll be done with school, I may no longer be in San Diego, though I hope that I will be able to stick around for another couple of years. And, of course, I look forward to strengthening my ties to my friends and making new ties to new people. Happy New Year.
I decided to stay in with the family this year when the clock struck twelve. My family and I are notoriously non-exciting when it comes to holidays. I spent the new year curled up next to a Stephen Hawking book listening to a Curb Your Enthusiasm marathon on TV when I realized that it was 12:02. Oops, Hey guys its midnight, I yelled out. I was going to meet up with people afterwards but living so removed from the inner city, I was just too lazy to go out.
This entire past year has been marked in laziness I feel. Or if laziness is not quite the right word here, then lack of motivation is. I haven’t pushed myself as much as I wanted to last year. My excuse is that last year was just one of those years: chill, down-tempo. A time to incubate, kind of like those unproductive periods in the career of artists and mathematicians.
It’s been a year where I have really had to pause and ask myself where it is I am going, now that I am poised to start my career. If I am going to shift focus in life from academicia, an environment that I have known and loved for the last seven tears, to that cold cruel working world, then, shit, it only makes sense that I consider my choices and attitudes as meticulously as possible. The truth is I am quite done with school and ready for work. The caveat is finding the type of work that will keep me happy, interested, that will provide for enough mobility. All of these things that impossible to guess. I may as well just jump into the pool, that is how I will learn how to swim, so to speak.
The good thing is that I have also spent the last year building up inspiration. Building up enough energy so that (hopefully) blaze through these last six or nine months of school and set my working world on fire.
This year has also been important in one other way. Old friends have always been of immeasurable importance to me. But the source of much of my support and happiness this year has been in new friendships forged. I had to be a recluse in 2004 to focus on school responsibilities. And the hard work then allowed me much more time in 2005 to branch out into the real world and not only meet new people, but really know and love those who I had already met.
It started this past summer, when work actually afforded me a leisure time. And I have to say I have met some incredible people. I am speaking specifically about many of the people that I have met in San Diego this past year. I won’t mention any by name because there are so many great people to appreciate. They know who they are. I also feel lucky because I already know some of these friendships will be kept for life. I’m privileged for that.
So that’s the end of the old year. As for the coming year, there’s no way I can project myself that far. But hopefully I’ll be done with school, I may no longer be in San Diego, though I hope that I will be able to stick around for another couple of years. And, of course, I look forward to strengthening my ties to my friends and making new ties to new people. Happy New Year.