a bit blue ...
Trying to get the wireless PCI card to work on my other computer was so frustrating today that I basically took my frustration out on the netgear support reps who wouldn't help me because I haven't registered my product. Called comcast who helped me reset my Internet connection and wala net works again.
Out of nowhere I felt the need to cry and my head was exploding also. I was feeling really happy yesterday and today just felt kind of blue. I can't figure out whether I want to see the Strokes in LA tomorrow or not ... partially it's a money thing and the other thing is I still have to work on my scholarship application that's due the Monday I come back from break. I still have the AAJA scholarship apps to work on also that's due next Friday. I still haven't mailed out my internship applications either ... I don't feel productive and after going to the workshop in Sac yesterday and getting up at 4 to catch a bus to go there ... I just felt tired. Didn't have the most pleasant conversation with JShong who's never speaking to me again which is fine ... I just question why I didn't make it work with him. My copyeditor friend told me JShong is just reacting to not getting what he wants or me not recpricating the feelings he felt. The copyeditor said he knew it obvious JShong had a thing for me because we got along so well ... but I just kept ignoring the obvious because this person was my really good friend and I didn't want to ruin a good thing.
My dad needed me to go buy mouse traps and some sandwich bags for my sister and there was a load of clothes to wash that weren't even mines. Then there were leftover dishes from yesterday my dad neglected to wash and I just wanted to scream because I didn't want to spend my break worrying about cleaning the house, making sure clothes are washed or figuring out how to capture mice. I hate spending my vacation worrying about stuff at home ... I want to go and have freedom and live freely and to the fullest.
Out of nowhere I felt the need to cry and my head was exploding also. I was feeling really happy yesterday and today just felt kind of blue. I can't figure out whether I want to see the Strokes in LA tomorrow or not ... partially it's a money thing and the other thing is I still have to work on my scholarship application that's due the Monday I come back from break. I still have the AAJA scholarship apps to work on also that's due next Friday. I still haven't mailed out my internship applications either ... I don't feel productive and after going to the workshop in Sac yesterday and getting up at 4 to catch a bus to go there ... I just felt tired. Didn't have the most pleasant conversation with JShong who's never speaking to me again which is fine ... I just question why I didn't make it work with him. My copyeditor friend told me JShong is just reacting to not getting what he wants or me not recpricating the feelings he felt. The copyeditor said he knew it obvious JShong had a thing for me because we got along so well ... but I just kept ignoring the obvious because this person was my really good friend and I didn't want to ruin a good thing.
My dad needed me to go buy mouse traps and some sandwich bags for my sister and there was a load of clothes to wash that weren't even mines. Then there were leftover dishes from yesterday my dad neglected to wash and I just wanted to scream because I didn't want to spend my break worrying about cleaning the house, making sure clothes are washed or figuring out how to capture mice. I hate spending my vacation worrying about stuff at home ... I want to go and have freedom and live freely and to the fullest.