Thinking...Yet Again...
I miss you,
Miss you so bad.
I don't forget you,
oh it's so sad.
I hope you can hear me.
I remember it clearly,
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, oh
I was just thinking (as I have been for the past 2ish months). In my head I was having a conversation with Craig (if we saw each other again and sat and talked). It almost brought me to real tears too, so it's a deep conversation. I was telling "him" that I have found understanding in a lot of the shit that went down back when we were together. I understand a lot of the mistakes and that I had lost myself in the process during that time. I was also having a conversation in my head with Betty before it turned to Craig and I was explaining to "her" about how I went ot the movies right after Craig and I broke up with a bunch of old friends that I had forgotten about. I told "her" about how she and the others were like one world that I was apart of and everything else was yet another world of which I lived in. I said that I had forgotten about "my" world. That's when it turned to a conversation with Craig and I told him about my understanding and losing myself. It's true that I had lost myself throughout the course of our second time around. I lost sight of everything and became something I wasn't. Then the conversation turned to how now that we're no longer together, everything is all jumbled together and nothing make sense anymore. However when I was with him, everything seemed to make sense, I knew where I was going (but maybe not what I was doing...heh..we probably wouldn't be here if I did). Anyway, I said that I knew that one day things will get better and things will begin to make sense again. However, I wanted them to make sense now because I'm going crazy and I don't want to feel the way I do anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore. This is where I almost started crying. It's true...I'm tired and worn out. I don't want to carry with me this pain and heartache anymore. I don't want to hurt anymore...
Miss you so bad.
I don't forget you,
oh it's so sad.
I hope you can hear me.
I remember it clearly,
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, oh
I was just thinking (as I have been for the past 2ish months). In my head I was having a conversation with Craig (if we saw each other again and sat and talked). It almost brought me to real tears too, so it's a deep conversation. I was telling "him" that I have found understanding in a lot of the shit that went down back when we were together. I understand a lot of the mistakes and that I had lost myself in the process during that time. I was also having a conversation in my head with Betty before it turned to Craig and I was explaining to "her" about how I went ot the movies right after Craig and I broke up with a bunch of old friends that I had forgotten about. I told "her" about how she and the others were like one world that I was apart of and everything else was yet another world of which I lived in. I said that I had forgotten about "my" world. That's when it turned to a conversation with Craig and I told him about my understanding and losing myself. It's true that I had lost myself throughout the course of our second time around. I lost sight of everything and became something I wasn't. Then the conversation turned to how now that we're no longer together, everything is all jumbled together and nothing make sense anymore. However when I was with him, everything seemed to make sense, I knew where I was going (but maybe not what I was doing...heh..we probably wouldn't be here if I did). Anyway, I said that I knew that one day things will get better and things will begin to make sense again. However, I wanted them to make sense now because I'm going crazy and I don't want to feel the way I do anymore, I don't want to hurt anymore. This is where I almost started crying. It's true...I'm tired and worn out. I don't want to carry with me this pain and heartache anymore. I don't want to hurt anymore...