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It really bothers me when I hear someone I care about deeply say that his ambition in life is to "grow up and be homeless."
I've known him for nearly a year and a half, so I should know well enough to expect these things from him, but...he wants to be a squatter. He wants to lose his identity just to be some homeless kid smoking up all the time, spanging money to buy alcohol. He wants to hitch-hike and get picked up by some passer-by who grows marijuana so he can trim the marijuana for the person and be paid in weed.
He never wants to hold down a real job again, he doesn't want to have meaningful relationships with other people, he doesn't want to have a home to go to every night.
It hurts me that he feels that way. It's his life to do with as he pleases, but someone who I know has so much potential, who could achieve so much in his life, to see him throw it all away...It seems like such a waste. And...he knows that it's basically a waste of his life, but he doesn't care. He even seems to ENJOY that fact.
I just don't get it. And I sometimes wish I just didn't care so damn much.
I've known him for nearly a year and a half, so I should know well enough to expect these things from him, but...he wants to be a squatter. He wants to lose his identity just to be some homeless kid smoking up all the time, spanging money to buy alcohol. He wants to hitch-hike and get picked up by some passer-by who grows marijuana so he can trim the marijuana for the person and be paid in weed.
He never wants to hold down a real job again, he doesn't want to have meaningful relationships with other people, he doesn't want to have a home to go to every night.
It hurts me that he feels that way. It's his life to do with as he pleases, but someone who I know has so much potential, who could achieve so much in his life, to see him throw it all away...It seems like such a waste. And...he knows that it's basically a waste of his life, but he doesn't care. He even seems to ENJOY that fact.
I just don't get it. And I sometimes wish I just didn't care so damn much.