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Dreams. What are dreams? Dreams have an impact on our lives. As children they scare us. They can torement a broken heart. I have dreams almost every night. I feel like a small child that runs to their mother after having a bad dream. Except when I wake up, the dream doesn't stop.
Nathan is my everything He doesn't even realize how much he helps me. To be next to him makes it all go away. The things he says. He does everything he can for me & so much more. Dreams are weird. YOu can run, but you can't run fast enough. You open your mouth, but no screams escape. Nothing you do can keep you from your fate.
It's kinda like life...what happens; happens. It happens for a reason, it was meant to be. For reason unknown, we'll never know why someone gets beat, raped, why someone gets into a car accident, goes through a break up or divorce.
It's all meant to happen. If you look back, you can trace every event back. Life is as crazy as love. I've never left like this for anyone. Just him. He's helped me live, grow, exsist.
I am nothing without him, I'm me. Mousie. Just a lot more empty. he's become such a big part of my life. But I know if he left me today I would have to go on. & I would. Maybe from the thought of him being mine again, & just because I have to. He has taught me so much & he is such an amazing person. He is so smart. He has a brillant mind & he's seen so much.
He's a 30 year old trapped in a 17 year olds body. I worry about him though. I worry so much. He is a very capable person. I am well aware of that. I am afraid he's afraid to talk to me. Whether he realizes it or not, I don't think he trusts me to the full level he could. Which is fine. Because I know when he's ready to talk to me...he will. & I'll be here. Waiting.
Patience is a virtue. He's taught me. I just pray I can give him as much as he's given me. I almost lost him once because of foolish pride. I couldn't admit when I was hurt & I almost lost him. It won't happen again. [Thank you Tommy. You don't even realize what you've given me. Thank you MaKayla for posting these for me. I ♥ you bunches, love. I'm a stupid, foolish girl, but I'm happy. I'm happy
Love always,
Mousie
Nathan is my everything He doesn't even realize how much he helps me. To be next to him makes it all go away. The things he says. He does everything he can for me & so much more. Dreams are weird. YOu can run, but you can't run fast enough. You open your mouth, but no screams escape. Nothing you do can keep you from your fate.
It's kinda like life...what happens; happens. It happens for a reason, it was meant to be. For reason unknown, we'll never know why someone gets beat, raped, why someone gets into a car accident, goes through a break up or divorce.
It's all meant to happen. If you look back, you can trace every event back. Life is as crazy as love. I've never left like this for anyone. Just him. He's helped me live, grow, exsist.
I am nothing without him, I'm me. Mousie. Just a lot more empty. he's become such a big part of my life. But I know if he left me today I would have to go on. & I would. Maybe from the thought of him being mine again, & just because I have to. He has taught me so much & he is such an amazing person. He is so smart. He has a brillant mind & he's seen so much.
He's a 30 year old trapped in a 17 year olds body. I worry about him though. I worry so much. He is a very capable person. I am well aware of that. I am afraid he's afraid to talk to me. Whether he realizes it or not, I don't think he trusts me to the full level he could. Which is fine. Because I know when he's ready to talk to me...he will. & I'll be here. Waiting.
Patience is a virtue. He's taught me. I just pray I can give him as much as he's given me. I almost lost him once because of foolish pride. I couldn't admit when I was hurt & I almost lost him. It won't happen again. [Thank you Tommy. You don't even realize what you've given me. Thank you MaKayla for posting these for me. I ♥ you bunches, love. I'm a stupid, foolish girl, but I'm happy. I'm happy
Love always,
Mousie