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I haven't posted in a LONG time.
So here's a quick update and a frantic, anger filled rant.
Katie is healing, and she seems happy. she has a huge stall and tons of food and a couple barn mates, but I know she's getting a little stir crazy, and I don't blame her. But she's been a doll the couple times we've gone for walks around the farm.
Mae is a blast. She has a love/hate relationship with the snow. She likes to snuffle and snort and pounce around in it, but it's cold and hurts her little toes. She has next to no hair on her legs and belly, so it only takes about 5-10 minutes before she's shaking and shivering and limping around.
I've designated March 1st as her DOB, so she's almost a year!
I love living with Katie. She's AWESOME and smart and funny. She's so weird but in a good way. She always makes me laugh.
I went to Josh and Sue's on friday and we had a poker night. Jenn's brother and fiance was there and it was awesome to see them all again. I missed Andrew and Erika like crazy. It was really nice to see Josh and sue as well. I was even cool with Amy and Jill and Lucas too, even though they tend to be annoying at times. Lucas was being a dick, but that didn't shock me too much.
I hate snow in Ohio. People forget how to act. Seriously: 6 inches of snow and some freezing rain is NOT enough to go and stock up on groceries for the next week. upstate New York got ONE HUNDRED INCHES of snow and they survived. They were only snowed in for like 8-9 days.
But I have discovered the amazingness of front wheel drive. The Aztec is a BEAST in the snow, going through snow drifts and shit like they were NOTHING. And the saturn has really impressed me with it's ability to handle in the snow.
People at work are starting to warm up some, I fell in love with Mohawk boy's girlfriend. And I adore him, in a very, very friend's only way. He's awesome to talk to and hilarious.
The girls are starting to be less cold and talk more to me. But with that comes the knowledge of gossip, so I tend to hole myself up back in the kitchen and chat with the guys.
Megan turned 18 today! She's so funny. she's like "I FEEL DIFFERENT" and it was cute. I did not feel any different when I turned 18. at all.
So I need to bitch for a while. Feel free to ignore anything that follows because it's all personal family bullshit that I always bitch about.
First off I want to say I love my dad.
And I want to kill him.
Part of me has been trying to work up the courage to talk to my mother, mostly because I want to scathe her with all the things I think about her.
My dad LOST HIS FUCKING JOB- and the company gave him a new one, that pays about $400 less a month. He's paying for HER car, MY car, my SISTER'S car, as well as other things. My sister borrows money sometimes, I do because I can't help it, especially cause Jenn screwed Katie and I over so badly, and Katie getting hurt, etc, the bills really piled up the last couple months, but I've asked for VERY little, and I showed him how to get about $2000 more back on his income taxes this year, so I'm making up for it, I feel.
She's taking a FUCKING VACATION TO CANCUN.
You're telling me that while YOUR HUSBAND (whether you are separated or NOT he is STILL the father of her children AND supporting her pot smoking, selfish, inconsiderate ass) is struggling to make ends meet you're going to go on a vacation?
I'm sorry if you read this, Trish, and I am sorry if anything I say offends you, but I cannot help it anymore.
I hate her. I cannot believe how immature,selfish and irresponsible she is. Megan tells me every once in a while she finds pipes and papers and other pot smoking stuff.
And you know how I feel about pot? I don't! I don't give a shit if people smoke pot, *I* don't, but do whatever the hell you want.
But HOW DARE YOU smoke in a house and leave stuff where YOUR CHILD can find it?! What kind of a ROLE MODEL do you think you are being?? I don't care if she is 3, 11, or 18, You are a PARENT and a ROLE MODEL. grow the FUCK UP.
HOW DARE YOU leave that shit around the house IN THE OPEN and then blame ME, ME for being a BAD role model?!?!?! Telling ME I need to try harder, telling ME that *I* was selfish and irresponsible!!! FUCK YOU.
One day, Karma is going to come around and bite her in the ass and I am just waiting.
I can't blame it ALL on her though, some of it is my dad's fault, because he lets her. He pays for it and see's it's not right, but doesn't do anything about it. Instead he just sits at home alone while she's planning her god damned vacation to cancun and drinks himself into oblivion.
I threw away my starbucks cup in his trash can and there were at least 12 cans of bud light. And he was LIT when I came by tonight to pick mae up. He had been steadily drinking since he had dinner, which was around 5pm.
GRRR
I cannot even begin to put into words the anger that has formed in the pit of my stomach.
So here's a quick update and a frantic, anger filled rant.
Katie is healing, and she seems happy. she has a huge stall and tons of food and a couple barn mates, but I know she's getting a little stir crazy, and I don't blame her. But she's been a doll the couple times we've gone for walks around the farm.
Mae is a blast. She has a love/hate relationship with the snow. She likes to snuffle and snort and pounce around in it, but it's cold and hurts her little toes. She has next to no hair on her legs and belly, so it only takes about 5-10 minutes before she's shaking and shivering and limping around.
I've designated March 1st as her DOB, so she's almost a year!
I love living with Katie. She's AWESOME and smart and funny. She's so weird but in a good way. She always makes me laugh.
I went to Josh and Sue's on friday and we had a poker night. Jenn's brother and fiance was there and it was awesome to see them all again. I missed Andrew and Erika like crazy. It was really nice to see Josh and sue as well. I was even cool with Amy and Jill and Lucas too, even though they tend to be annoying at times. Lucas was being a dick, but that didn't shock me too much.
I hate snow in Ohio. People forget how to act. Seriously: 6 inches of snow and some freezing rain is NOT enough to go and stock up on groceries for the next week. upstate New York got ONE HUNDRED INCHES of snow and they survived. They were only snowed in for like 8-9 days.
But I have discovered the amazingness of front wheel drive. The Aztec is a BEAST in the snow, going through snow drifts and shit like they were NOTHING. And the saturn has really impressed me with it's ability to handle in the snow.
People at work are starting to warm up some, I fell in love with Mohawk boy's girlfriend. And I adore him, in a very, very friend's only way. He's awesome to talk to and hilarious.
The girls are starting to be less cold and talk more to me. But with that comes the knowledge of gossip, so I tend to hole myself up back in the kitchen and chat with the guys.
Megan turned 18 today! She's so funny. she's like "I FEEL DIFFERENT" and it was cute. I did not feel any different when I turned 18. at all.
So I need to bitch for a while. Feel free to ignore anything that follows because it's all personal family bullshit that I always bitch about.
First off I want to say I love my dad.
And I want to kill him.
Part of me has been trying to work up the courage to talk to my mother, mostly because I want to scathe her with all the things I think about her.
My dad LOST HIS FUCKING JOB- and the company gave him a new one, that pays about $400 less a month. He's paying for HER car, MY car, my SISTER'S car, as well as other things. My sister borrows money sometimes, I do because I can't help it, especially cause Jenn screwed Katie and I over so badly, and Katie getting hurt, etc, the bills really piled up the last couple months, but I've asked for VERY little, and I showed him how to get about $2000 more back on his income taxes this year, so I'm making up for it, I feel.
She's taking a FUCKING VACATION TO CANCUN.
You're telling me that while YOUR HUSBAND (whether you are separated or NOT he is STILL the father of her children AND supporting her pot smoking, selfish, inconsiderate ass) is struggling to make ends meet you're going to go on a vacation?
I'm sorry if you read this, Trish, and I am sorry if anything I say offends you, but I cannot help it anymore.
I hate her. I cannot believe how immature,selfish and irresponsible she is. Megan tells me every once in a while she finds pipes and papers and other pot smoking stuff.
And you know how I feel about pot? I don't! I don't give a shit if people smoke pot, *I* don't, but do whatever the hell you want.
But HOW DARE YOU smoke in a house and leave stuff where YOUR CHILD can find it?! What kind of a ROLE MODEL do you think you are being?? I don't care if she is 3, 11, or 18, You are a PARENT and a ROLE MODEL. grow the FUCK UP.
HOW DARE YOU leave that shit around the house IN THE OPEN and then blame ME, ME for being a BAD role model?!?!?! Telling ME I need to try harder, telling ME that *I* was selfish and irresponsible!!! FUCK YOU.
One day, Karma is going to come around and bite her in the ass and I am just waiting.
I can't blame it ALL on her though, some of it is my dad's fault, because he lets her. He pays for it and see's it's not right, but doesn't do anything about it. Instead he just sits at home alone while she's planning her god damned vacation to cancun and drinks himself into oblivion.
I threw away my starbucks cup in his trash can and there were at least 12 cans of bud light. And he was LIT when I came by tonight to pick mae up. He had been steadily drinking since he had dinner, which was around 5pm.
GRRR
I cannot even begin to put into words the anger that has formed in the pit of my stomach.