I wish i....
I wish i could actully keep up with this thing. I dont come around very often and when i do its a long drawn out thing about what ive been up to...i was reading some of my older posts and i realize ive changed so much in the last few years and what i thought was me isnt. Being with Jason even when we were just friends has brought out things in me that i never thought about before. One major thing is my thoughts about what happened to Paul, before i was sad and i thought i loved him and would never get over it...but i realized if paul loved me or his kid or orion he wouldnt have done it he was a selfish jerk who i probley would have dumped eventully anyway cause he was clingy and annoying...its mean but when i look back he was kinda creepy stalker type guy...weird...
My thoughts on working has changed i always thought i would love to be a stay at home mom...i realize now i couldnt do it i dont have enough motovation at home...i dont clean i cook but not clean...i want to find a job but because im pregnant (yes we are pregnant i am about 5 months along) I really dont know if i should. And its not for a lack of trying i mean im not even getting phone calls back for interviews so its not like the employer even knows im pregnant yet...i dont have it on my resume' or anything lol...so my guess is people are just not hiring right now...
Yes I am pregnant. We found out at the end of March we didnt tell our parents till July mainly cause we didnt know what was going on. Its a girl. I wont say the name on here cause its a secret. And She is due December 6th, 2009. SOOOOO excited. We go see my OB on Friday and we have a lot of questions to ask since we had a Ultrasound on the 14 of july and they said that i might have placenta privia...which basically means my placenta is either fully covering my cervix or just particially...if it doesnt move by the 30 week ultrasound (which now i have to get cause of this normally you dont) i have to have a C-Section. I think the C-Section scares me more then i think it does cause i keep having nightmares about the baby being ripped out of me early...
I can feel her kick and tumble while she still has room...Jason is sooo cute when he feels her move...and he talks to my belly and tells her he loves her very much...sooo darn cute now i know why i wanted to have kids with him :). Orion is just as cute always making sure im ok and making sure that baby is ok and tells the baby he loves her and tells her good night and good morning...
Lately ive been feeling kinda trapped and blue...but its cause i cant get out of the house Jasons working 5 am shifts and he comes home nice and early 1:30 but he doesnt wanna do anything cause hes tired which i get trust me on that one...but i need out of the house and he doesnt understand that...when i ask if we can go someplace he asks where...i make suggestions like wally world or something and hes like why we dont need anything...but like i said he doesnt get that i just want to leave the house for awhile...this weekend was great we went to the beach twice once up to Gull Lake and once to Lake Bonnivista...oh how wonderful it was and last night we went to his sisters place for dinner that was awesome...im so jealous of the food his sister and mom make...i cant make meals like that...i try but it never works out...
Its so sad i want to sleep but i cant once jasons gone at 4:30 I want to go back to sleep but never actully do...maybe for like an hour or so...at like 9 ugh so stupid...
I have been watching kids cartoon since i found out i was pregnant. Now that im about 5 months she can hear it too and she moves around on some of the cartoons its cute...
Oh well im going to try to get some sleep...i'll try to keep this updated better :)maybe lol
My thoughts on working has changed i always thought i would love to be a stay at home mom...i realize now i couldnt do it i dont have enough motovation at home...i dont clean i cook but not clean...i want to find a job but because im pregnant (yes we are pregnant i am about 5 months along) I really dont know if i should. And its not for a lack of trying i mean im not even getting phone calls back for interviews so its not like the employer even knows im pregnant yet...i dont have it on my resume' or anything lol...so my guess is people are just not hiring right now...
Yes I am pregnant. We found out at the end of March we didnt tell our parents till July mainly cause we didnt know what was going on. Its a girl. I wont say the name on here cause its a secret. And She is due December 6th, 2009. SOOOOO excited. We go see my OB on Friday and we have a lot of questions to ask since we had a Ultrasound on the 14 of july and they said that i might have placenta privia...which basically means my placenta is either fully covering my cervix or just particially...if it doesnt move by the 30 week ultrasound (which now i have to get cause of this normally you dont) i have to have a C-Section. I think the C-Section scares me more then i think it does cause i keep having nightmares about the baby being ripped out of me early...
I can feel her kick and tumble while she still has room...Jason is sooo cute when he feels her move...and he talks to my belly and tells her he loves her very much...sooo darn cute now i know why i wanted to have kids with him :). Orion is just as cute always making sure im ok and making sure that baby is ok and tells the baby he loves her and tells her good night and good morning...
Lately ive been feeling kinda trapped and blue...but its cause i cant get out of the house Jasons working 5 am shifts and he comes home nice and early 1:30 but he doesnt wanna do anything cause hes tired which i get trust me on that one...but i need out of the house and he doesnt understand that...when i ask if we can go someplace he asks where...i make suggestions like wally world or something and hes like why we dont need anything...but like i said he doesnt get that i just want to leave the house for awhile...this weekend was great we went to the beach twice once up to Gull Lake and once to Lake Bonnivista...oh how wonderful it was and last night we went to his sisters place for dinner that was awesome...im so jealous of the food his sister and mom make...i cant make meals like that...i try but it never works out...
Its so sad i want to sleep but i cant once jasons gone at 4:30 I want to go back to sleep but never actully do...maybe for like an hour or so...at like 9 ugh so stupid...
I have been watching kids cartoon since i found out i was pregnant. Now that im about 5 months she can hear it too and she moves around on some of the cartoons its cute...
Oh well im going to try to get some sleep...i'll try to keep this updated better :)maybe lol