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so eleven more days and it will be the anniversery of paul commiting suicide...im happy now but of course it still bothers me alot...jason is helping me we went to a memorial that was actully for my gramma and otehrs that died in the past year but the speaker was talking about suicide i guess thats one of her "specialties" and it killed me jason hugged me so hard he knew why i was crying and what was going through my head...im very lucky that i have him...he gave me a ring for my birthday a promise ring but its still a beautiful ring and i love it....Jasons great...he's wonderful with Orion and has taken on the responciblities of a dad with out being pushed or asked he just is there last week he picked orion up from school three times with out me took orion to beavers took orion to swimming took him school on wedensday morning...even picked my mom up from her doctors appointment down town...like he's just there and he was telling me one day that he's so happy to do all of it that i dont need to ask he wants to do it...:) i guess im lucky he makes me feel better about alot of things :)