Empty...
I feel like I'm loseing everyone around me. I think Christian may be cheating on me with Amber Lyn, Josh wont talk to me because I told him he shouldn't worry about me because I don't like people worrying sbout me, Beth is spending so much time with Lori now, Abby is conforming and getting pissed at me because she's changing to be like one of them and I don't like it... Gr. I just want Christian. I can't wait until Spring Break. I get to spend it all with Him. Anything will be patched up then... hopefully. I want to cut so bad right now. Everything is just fucking with me. I got Easter cards. Hm... people celebrate the death of the person who gave his life for his religion. Woo... big whoop. Everything is "God this" "God that". STOP TALKING ABOUT ME, DAMNIT! I'm failing in school. I think I just gave up on everything. Maybe dropped everything because I can't stop thinking about... something. I still wonder what the hell Christian is going to do with my ring size. All I get is an evil chuckle and an "I love you." WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!? I want to know what the fuck He's going to do by giving me a ring! ...? Propose? A lot of my friends think so. Maybe it's just a present. I dunno. =/. It's amazing how many friends you can make online. Half of the people on my buddy list are from the D/s room or I just don't talk to. I need to clean it out again. :: Sigh ::. I'm going to go find some gum. I'm hungry.