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So I went out to go shopping as I planned after registering for my classes.
Who said shopping was their bestfriend? Or that it soothed them or whatever...
whoever it was.. it's not me. If any, I probably just got more depressed. As time flew by, I kept thinking about how much my life's gonna change ;-; I really did not expect to have all night classes. I mean heck.. I can't even go to dinner with my firends if I wanted to. That's assuming I actually have friends here to begin with ;-; But now I can't go watch a movie with my aunt either.. cause our schedules don't mix. My usual lounging at night in front of the computer will be gone.. now I'll also have to actually write my papers in the morning... I always always do them at night. That's when I think best.. ::twitch:: but well.. I dunno. Driving at night during winter is gonna really kill me too...
::sighs::
shopping sucked too ;-; I'm not huge. Far from it.. but it's always depressing when you have to go up a size in clothing. I know.. that's so trivial, isn't it? But it's the truth. No one likes it. My body's fine.. it's just my arms. Then I tried giving my mom some info about Ksu and the books and the billing and so forth. She got all.. pissy in her weird way and just told me to do whatever with my college. To make it in blatent term that others would understand.. "Don't tell me anything about it. Just do it. Keep charing it to financial Aid" Gah. The thing is.. it's gonna be under my name.. and in 4 years.. if she all of a sudden decides that she doesn't wanna pay for it.. I'm stuck with it! Even though she told me she'd pay for the books. ugh..and the thing was.. I was only informing her... thinking "oh.. she might wanna know this cause it'll benefit her" or simply by just knowing what's going on and such? I mean.. wouldn't parents normally wanna know what's up with their kid's life? especially as big as these? Nope. Made me kinda really enjoy my schedule sort of... since I wont be here when she's home. I don't have to see her. It's not like she wants much to do with me.
Then that made me think about.. how I realyl won't have any life beyond my classes. Oh.. and the fact that I don't know if I'm in the right major or not. I mean.. I am.. but.. the more i stay in it and the more I look at the classes listed.. It just... I mean... I love art. I do... but.. I love Art with people. I don't want a desk job that's.. pretty much being stuck in an office... I have to... NEED to work with people.
Heck.. and there's always the... what if I fail? I mean.. math courses you can always get tutoring for. No problem. English? Someone can always help you with that. Art? Art?! Art is... you really can't help art as much. ... I just dunno if I'm cut out for that. I'm really not that creative. I just like pretty drawings ;-; that's really the gist of it.
Oh.. and I looked up my proffessors online to see they're grading thing. ::laughs:: Lo and behold.. even with only 4 classes.. I got the sucky proffesors. Great. Just great! Good luck to my scholarship.....
As if this isn't enough to just get me downunder.... some person just outbidded me on e-bay! >.<
.. oh.. and I'm working tomorrow and have to do laundry.
Man =D Life's great.
Who said shopping was their bestfriend? Or that it soothed them or whatever...
whoever it was.. it's not me. If any, I probably just got more depressed. As time flew by, I kept thinking about how much my life's gonna change ;-; I really did not expect to have all night classes. I mean heck.. I can't even go to dinner with my firends if I wanted to. That's assuming I actually have friends here to begin with ;-; But now I can't go watch a movie with my aunt either.. cause our schedules don't mix. My usual lounging at night in front of the computer will be gone.. now I'll also have to actually write my papers in the morning... I always always do them at night. That's when I think best.. ::twitch:: but well.. I dunno. Driving at night during winter is gonna really kill me too...
::sighs::
shopping sucked too ;-; I'm not huge. Far from it.. but it's always depressing when you have to go up a size in clothing. I know.. that's so trivial, isn't it? But it's the truth. No one likes it. My body's fine.. it's just my arms. Then I tried giving my mom some info about Ksu and the books and the billing and so forth. She got all.. pissy in her weird way and just told me to do whatever with my college. To make it in blatent term that others would understand.. "Don't tell me anything about it. Just do it. Keep charing it to financial Aid" Gah. The thing is.. it's gonna be under my name.. and in 4 years.. if she all of a sudden decides that she doesn't wanna pay for it.. I'm stuck with it! Even though she told me she'd pay for the books. ugh..and the thing was.. I was only informing her... thinking "oh.. she might wanna know this cause it'll benefit her" or simply by just knowing what's going on and such? I mean.. wouldn't parents normally wanna know what's up with their kid's life? especially as big as these? Nope. Made me kinda really enjoy my schedule sort of... since I wont be here when she's home. I don't have to see her. It's not like she wants much to do with me.
Then that made me think about.. how I realyl won't have any life beyond my classes. Oh.. and the fact that I don't know if I'm in the right major or not. I mean.. I am.. but.. the more i stay in it and the more I look at the classes listed.. It just... I mean... I love art. I do... but.. I love Art with people. I don't want a desk job that's.. pretty much being stuck in an office... I have to... NEED to work with people.
Heck.. and there's always the... what if I fail? I mean.. math courses you can always get tutoring for. No problem. English? Someone can always help you with that. Art? Art?! Art is... you really can't help art as much. ... I just dunno if I'm cut out for that. I'm really not that creative. I just like pretty drawings ;-; that's really the gist of it.
Oh.. and I looked up my proffessors online to see they're grading thing. ::laughs:: Lo and behold.. even with only 4 classes.. I got the sucky proffesors. Great. Just great! Good luck to my scholarship.....
As if this isn't enough to just get me downunder.... some person just outbidded me on e-bay! >.<
.. oh.. and I'm working tomorrow and have to do laundry.
Man =D Life's great.