A Moment for real.
OK! It's Friday and I'm sitting here at work but have no real interest in being here. A lot of thoughts are running through my head and I am in a strange place. I have to stop and listen.
The last three years have been difficult
in many ways and yet have taught me so much
about my life, my way of being in the world.
I have relearned the lessons,
Desire
Expectations
Acceptance
Giving it all back.
I have done my best to
Accept my losses with some dignity
Accept my gains with some humility
Find a way to express my gratitude for what i have been given, in the real world.
Some days I have done better with this than on other days.
My inward life has gone through some
changes in the past year and most
particularly in the last six moths.
I am aware of the inward changes but
not yet certain how that has expressed
itself on the outward side.
Throughout this all, I have tried to
stop reaching for.... and to sit back
allow my life to give me what it will.
In essence, to trust my life.
The net result of that, as I realize it today,
is that I am in a very good place, perhaps a place
that I never expected to be again at this point in
my life. I have my struggles still, but life is good.
Some of you have accused me of Wisdom in the past,
an accusation which I vehemently deny not only with
words but also with the idiotic nature of some of those
things I do. Just a run o' the mill idiot trying to get
through one day to the next.
But a very blessed and fortunate idiot.
Sleep deep and Dream well.
The last three years have been difficult
in many ways and yet have taught me so much
about my life, my way of being in the world.
I have relearned the lessons,
Desire
Expectations
Acceptance
Giving it all back.
I have done my best to
Accept my losses with some dignity
Accept my gains with some humility
Find a way to express my gratitude for what i have been given, in the real world.
Some days I have done better with this than on other days.
My inward life has gone through some
changes in the past year and most
particularly in the last six moths.
I am aware of the inward changes but
not yet certain how that has expressed
itself on the outward side.
Throughout this all, I have tried to
stop reaching for.... and to sit back
allow my life to give me what it will.
In essence, to trust my life.
The net result of that, as I realize it today,
is that I am in a very good place, perhaps a place
that I never expected to be again at this point in
my life. I have my struggles still, but life is good.
Some of you have accused me of Wisdom in the past,
an accusation which I vehemently deny not only with
words but also with the idiotic nature of some of those
things I do. Just a run o' the mill idiot trying to get
through one day to the next.
But a very blessed and fortunate idiot.
Sleep deep and Dream well.