Realizations and Ridicules..
What's the main reason people do something for others? Is it not in hopes of feeling some sort of gratification? Even if it's from yourself... Gratification is something that people strive for. People long for a pat on the back for a good deed. You can't tell me that there isn't a motive behind each action.
It takes so much of me not to give up on people sometimes. It's so hard for me not to use a cynical eye when I look at others. I miss the innocence of friendship and the beauty of trust. I'm much too young to see things the way I do. I've discovered that I really do like that "pat on the back" feeling of recognition. Who doesn't? I don't need it all the time, but occassionally is nice. But when it's boiled down to who does what and who does it better and more often, I think I lose. He can sit there, staring me down, and count off the occasions he's helped me out. When I thought he was just helping me out because he could, I now realize he wanted something in return. There's so much to this life I'm still learning.
Don't stare at me like you're waiting for a response, when I know you won't listen to anything I say. Don't promise yourself to the last word. Don't threaten me into a corner. I don't do well when I'm told what to do. I've always been too stubborn for direction. Don't... Just don't.
It takes so much of me not to give up on people sometimes. It's so hard for me not to use a cynical eye when I look at others. I miss the innocence of friendship and the beauty of trust. I'm much too young to see things the way I do. I've discovered that I really do like that "pat on the back" feeling of recognition. Who doesn't? I don't need it all the time, but occassionally is nice. But when it's boiled down to who does what and who does it better and more often, I think I lose. He can sit there, staring me down, and count off the occasions he's helped me out. When I thought he was just helping me out because he could, I now realize he wanted something in return. There's so much to this life I'm still learning.
Don't stare at me like you're waiting for a response, when I know you won't listen to anything I say. Don't promise yourself to the last word. Don't threaten me into a corner. I don't do well when I'm told what to do. I've always been too stubborn for direction. Don't... Just don't.