Oct 24, 2007 02:05
I'm probably just being oversensitive, but I'm kind of hurt that I've been totally left out of planning for the Northeast event game for LARP. When the possibility of traveling was first mentioned, I said I would love to go as long as there wasn't rugby that weekend, and asked if there was any room for me in a car. I never got a clear response, and didn't worry too much about it because I figured there would probably be rugby anyway.
But there isn't rugby that weekend. It's the week after regionals, and the week before nationals. I'd really like to go to the LARP. But now it seems there is no room in a car, and I didn't get in on sharing a hotel room.
I understand that people probably assumed that I would be too busy and wouldn't be able to go. But it would have been nice if anyone had asked if I needed a ride, or remembered to think of me when they were wondering who might want to go in on a hotel room. Or at least pretended to care that I wouldn't be coming.
I'm sorry. I really don't mean to be emo. I'm well aware that pretty much everyone involved in this whole planning process reads my LJ, and this entry isn't meant to be pointed. I've just been feeling kind of lonely and isolated lately. Yes, I know I'm busy. Part of the reason for that is that I deal with loneliness and insecurity by scheduling myself so tight that I simply never have time to feel lonely. But it doesn't help when a bunch of my friends plan a big trip and apparently forget that I exist.
self reflection,
roleplaying