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And so friends, I'm back.
Back with a punch.
I actually wanted to add, with a frivolous touch, that i feel very much like Carry from Sex and the City.
You may ask yourselves why on earth i would turn back to this, but i have realized that i do have a certain way with words, and looking back on past entries...i miss the digression of the soul.
I also feel i owe a certain closure to it all, or at the very least, continuance. That,and there are some things i'd like to reiterate.
So contingent upon the fact that you will not expect lengthy detail, for their is far too much to even begin to elaborate upon, i will embark on a brave attempt to catch you up in the world that is me....
My name is now Pao, for the record. Or, at the very least, i've decided its more befiting, and he seems to agree. Yes, that's right, there is someone there, should you not have read it branded on my forhead, heart worn on sleave. I've finally done it, and now i can say i've reached an altogether new level of myself, and i'm happy, and i'm content, and i'm at peace. And i think i've discovered something altogether beautiful. So you see, i was on the right track, of ye of little faith! And i really dont want to elaborate further on that, for its much too deep, too complex and all together unbefitting for me to attempt to put it into words. It's tragically undescribable, in the most beautiful sense.
I've read much of what i had written here in the past, and i have to say, its oddly unsettling. Its almost eery to read the changes in me, for they are numerous and sizable. I'm not sure exactly how i feel about these changes, given that they don't shed best light, in fact, i have no idea how i feel about others reading all of this now.
So much has changed in so little time, it feels a world apart, and sadly i can't promise changes wont continue, but one this remains true: I've always maintained the virtue of honesty and truness to my very core, and i am very much bereft with emotions.
But i can say i'm happy. Happy to see the greatness in life. Happy to feel great emotions and experiences. And I'm happy with who i've found, and with what i've been led to.
Back with a punch.
I actually wanted to add, with a frivolous touch, that i feel very much like Carry from Sex and the City.
You may ask yourselves why on earth i would turn back to this, but i have realized that i do have a certain way with words, and looking back on past entries...i miss the digression of the soul.
I also feel i owe a certain closure to it all, or at the very least, continuance. That,and there are some things i'd like to reiterate.
So contingent upon the fact that you will not expect lengthy detail, for their is far too much to even begin to elaborate upon, i will embark on a brave attempt to catch you up in the world that is me....
My name is now Pao, for the record. Or, at the very least, i've decided its more befiting, and he seems to agree. Yes, that's right, there is someone there, should you not have read it branded on my forhead, heart worn on sleave. I've finally done it, and now i can say i've reached an altogether new level of myself, and i'm happy, and i'm content, and i'm at peace. And i think i've discovered something altogether beautiful. So you see, i was on the right track, of ye of little faith! And i really dont want to elaborate further on that, for its much too deep, too complex and all together unbefitting for me to attempt to put it into words. It's tragically undescribable, in the most beautiful sense.
I've read much of what i had written here in the past, and i have to say, its oddly unsettling. Its almost eery to read the changes in me, for they are numerous and sizable. I'm not sure exactly how i feel about these changes, given that they don't shed best light, in fact, i have no idea how i feel about others reading all of this now.
So much has changed in so little time, it feels a world apart, and sadly i can't promise changes wont continue, but one this remains true: I've always maintained the virtue of honesty and truness to my very core, and i am very much bereft with emotions.
But i can say i'm happy. Happy to see the greatness in life. Happy to feel great emotions and experiences. And I'm happy with who i've found, and with what i've been led to.