Feb 02, 2006 12:22
The lady from Transportation just visited to take a quick inventory of our things so they can come prepared with enough materials for packing next Monday. Considering how often we've moved over the past 365 days I do appreciate the added help. Just weeks of notice (if we are lucky) and we are off to a new home. It helps having your loved one beside you in all of this.
Just found out that my husband will be deployed back to Iraq in June. Wow, now the count down begins. I am really going to do my best not to cry when we have to part. At least not in front of him. I know his departure is inevitable and will continue to be so throughout our years together but as much as you try to prepare for it, that feeling of loss is SO DAMN GREAT as they walk away and are out of your view. Days feel like weeks, weeks like months and well after 12 months you just want to have your soldier back in your arms. I pray for his safety and that of all our service men and women.
In 2004 during his leave from Iraq the 12 days he was home seemed to pass too quickly. For a moment I just wanted to hide him away to keep all to myself. Then Reality Hit!! For some reason I worried more about his well being after his leave was over than I had when he first left to go overseas.
I mailed letters every day if not twice a day. Using every break at work as an opportunity to write a love note or thought. Folks thought I was writing a novel. LOL
Now that we are married I hope we will continue to keep in touch. He often jokes that "now that we are married we don't have to be all lovey dovey any more" That is a DAMN LIE!! Keep up what you did to get your mate if you want to keep your mate.......Right?
I took tons of pics and made video clips to burn to CDs. I had a friend who is a photographer schedule me for a shoot and then had a special calendar made for him. On it I counted down the days so he could see how much closer he was to returning home to me. I added special notes and memories/anniversaries.
I am going to have to do this again this year with even more thought put into it.
Thankful I truly am for my husband and our relationship. I found a wonderful friend and partner in him and today I just feel as though I need to express this. My mother always reminded us that "Life is Precious & no one is promised tomorrow". This is true for every single one of us but with the military presence in Iraq I just know that it's all a matter of chance and time. Everyone is vulnerable and that sucks but is the way of life.
Okay I have to stop here because I am starting to get choked up. Can't you tell I am a newbie to all of this.