[FIC] Love Me Twice (… because I just can’t let you go) [10/??]
~Chapter Ten~
“You’re sure it’s alright if we stay with you Su?” JaeJoong asked for the umpteenth time that night.
“Of course it’s ok, besides, it’s a fun little idea to have you guys stay over for a while, and Na Young sure doesn’t seem to mind” Junsu chuckled.
“But you only have one bedroom, where are you gonna sleep?”
“Right here” he answered, patting the cushion beneath them. “I can pull out the couch to a bed and sleep out here.”
“Are you sure?”
“If you ask me that one more time hyung I swear I’m going to slap you.”
JaeJoong smiled innocently at him, “sorry.”
“Umma did you see Uncle Su’s room?” Na Young asked running into his arms.
“Yeah, what about it?”
“It’s huge” she replied, emphasizing the size of it with her hands.
He laughed at her as he kissed the top of her head. “Go play for a little while more because in about thirty minutes you have to go to bed.”
“Ok” she answered, walking back to Junsu’s room with her favorite doll in her hands.
“You know Jae” Junsu began, “you might think she’s clueless when it comes to you’re situation with hyung, but you could be underestimating her.”
“What do you mean?”
“I think she knows exactly what’s going on.”
“She’s only four.”
“Age doesn’t matter. Besides, she’s smart for a four year old. Really, she takes after you so much.”
“In what ways?” JaeJoong asked curiously.
“Let’s see, she has most of you’re expressions, especially that cute and irresistible pout, she’s extremely playful, and even though she’s little you can easily tell that at times she hides what she feels inside.”
“I don’t do the last thing you mentioned.”
“Um, yes you do. Like before, when Changmin told you that thing the first time we all met, you told me it didn’t bother you when in reality it did.”
“… Ok, one time, but that’s it.”
“Really Jae, I can go the whole night telling you stories about how well you hide your feelings.”
“Please don’t.”
“Then admit you do it.”
JaeJoong shot his brother a sharp look, “fine, I hide my feeling, happy now?”
He grinned at him, “very.”
JaeJoong wrapped the blanket he was cuddling with closer to himself to keep warm, “Hey Su, I’m just wondering, what were you doing at a club so late at night?” he asked puzzled.
Junsu shifted uncomfortably in his seat, “w-well, I was there to, you know, get a drink or two.”
“Uh-huh.” He replied slowly, eyeing his younger brother in disbelief.
At that moment, Junsu’s phone chimed from the kitchen and he excused himself to go answer it, thanking god he was able to escape the subject with JaeJoong.
“Hello?”
“Hey, it’s me” Yoochun answered.
“Oh … what do you want?”
“I wanted to know if everything’s ok with Jae and if there’s anything I can do to help.”
“Well you can’t really do much at the moment, they still don’t know about us remember?” Junsu told him.
“We’re never gonna get time to see each other with the two of them around” he sulked.
“We don’t have to see each other.”
“But … I though … because tonight …” he stuttered.
“Oh that, that was just a test to see if we’re able to go out again.”
“And did I pass?”
“… No.”
“You’re mean.”
Junsu grinned on the other line, “Well you know, that’s just how I am.”
Surprisingly, he found it fun to be teasing Yoochun like this.
“Seriously Junsu when are we gonna see each other again?”
“I’m not sure, I need to be around Jae now, help take care of my niece, and keep the two angry birds as far away from each other as possible.”
Yoochun sighed, “well, I guess it’s understandable, but if you’re ever around the neighborhood -”
“Yeah yeah, I’ll call and what not.”
“Su?” he heard JaeJoong’s voice echoing from the den area.
“Opps, sorry Yoochun I gotta go. I’ll talk with you later ok?” Junsu told him quickly.
“Ok then, bye.”
After hanging up, Junsu sighed to catch his breath he didn’t noticed he’d been holding in all this time. He then strolled back to his brother on the couch to see what he wanted.
“I’m gonna head to bed with Na Young now” JaeJoong said.
“Ok, I’ll come join you in five minutes to check and make sure that you guys are comfortable.”
“Thanks, and …”
“Yes?” Junsu prompted.
“I know you keep saying that you don’t mind me calling on you for favors all the time, but honestly, I feel guilty about it, and I promise I’ll find a way to repay you sometime in future.”
Junsu rested a hand on his brother’s shoulder, “I’m telling you hyung, you don’t need to, and besides, we’re family. I’d go to the end of the earth to do anything for you.”
JaeJoong smiled at him weakly before enveloping him in a tight hug, and as each minute passed with his brother’s reassurance, JaeJoong appreciated him more and more.
*~*~*~*~*~*
After Yunho left Changmin alone at the club, the latter had gotten himself completely drunk. He really had no idea what he was thinking or what came over him to kiss his best friend like that all of a sudden.
“God, I bet he hates me now” he groaned.
He ran his fingers though his hair as he refilled his shot glass for the 40th time that night. Just as he was about to drink it, a hand suddenly stopped him.
“You’ve already had enough” Kibum said, taking the drink out of his hands.
He pulled up a seat besides Changmin and the two sat in utter silence, the only sound passing through them was the laughter of people and the blaring music from the speakers.
“Look at the bright side; there are other fish in sea to catch” Kibum told him.
Changmin glared at him peculiarly, “what are you talking about?”
“Well I’m not one to eavesdrop, but seeing as you’re boyfriend left you, I’m saying there’s other chances with different people.”
Changmin bursted out laughing right then and there.
“W-what’s so funny?”
“You” he answered, clutching his stomach.
“Excuse me?” Kibum asked confused.
“Am man, Yunho’s not my boyfriend, he’s just a friend. I asked if he could pose as my boyfriend just so I could get to you” he breathed out.
“You mean … you lied to make me jealous?” Kibum asked incredulously.
Changmin’s laughter died down now and he layed his head gently on his shoulder, feeling a headache coming on.
“Dude, I’m kidding.”
“… Oh” he replied disappointed.
Changmin sighed, “… I don’t know what I want to do with my life anymore. Sometimes I feel like I want to quit doing photography and just settle down with a guy and have my own life for a change.”
Kibum glanced down at him, “I know what you mean. I can’t go anywhere unless there are fans or paparazzi trailing behind me. It’s annoying honestly. This is the first time in a while that I actually feel like a regular person.”
“Sucks to be famous, doesn’t it?”
“Psh, you’re telling me.”
Kibum looked over at the shot glass he took away from Changmin earlier. He was tempted to drink, tempted to drown himself in his own sorrow. He reached out for the whiskey and drank it all at once. He grasped the bottle with his other hand and poured himself some more of it to drink.
“Oh, so you can drink but I can’t?” Changmin picked his head up and asked outraged.
“Hey! I didn’t have anything to drink ever since I came so I’m an exception.”
Changmin mumbled under his breath, “I’m gonna go now, I’ve got some things I need to take care of.”
“Mmm, I’m sure we’ll see each other again soon. I’ve got another shoot to do in a couple weeks anyways.”
After biding farewell to one another, Changmin stumbled out the door, going on his own way to his next destination - home.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Yunho was at a loss when he realized that his one and only husband and child left him. It was as if everything was so surreal, he couldn’t process what had just happened in his mind.
The only place he figured JaeJoong could be was his brother’s, and even when it was already 11:00 pm, he was going to bring them back here where they belonged.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Near 1:00 am in the morning, Junsu shifted in his sleep upon hearing loud knocking on his apartment door. He decided to ignore it in the hopes that the person would go away if they were sane and realize that it was too early to be awake. Unfortunately, the person only pounded on the door harder and louder.
“Junsu open up! I know he’s in there!”
Junsu shot up from bed once he recognized the owner of the voice.
“Junsu! Hurry up and open this door!”
“Shit” he cursed, rolling out of bed.
Junsu was hesitant for a while as to whether or not he should answer the door. He heard a creaking sound then from behind and turned around to see JaeJoong walking towards him worriedly.
“What’s he doing here?”
Junsu shrugged, “I have no idea.”
“You have to go and tell him to keep it down, he’s waking up Na Young and I don’t want her to know Yunho’s here.”
“Ok.”
The latter went to unlock the door, and just as Yunho was about to force his way in, Junsu pushed him back to prevent him from doing so.
“Hyung, have you any idea what time it is? And if you keep making noise you’ll wake up my neighbors, and let me tell you, they are certainly not morning people.”
Yunho grabbed his arms tightly, “Su, you have to let me in” he said desperately.
“I can’t.”
“Why not?”
Junsu avoided all eye contact with him, “Jae doesn’t want to see you right now.”
“I don’t understand, I just missed one silly little dinner and he does this?”
Junsu turned to him angrily, “Silly little dinner? Hyung, we’re not talking about some dumb business dinner, we’re talking about a family dinner. How on earth can you say that’s silly?!”
“Ok, so I messed up once, but I want to apologize for my acts now.”
Junsu laughed, “you think this is only about you’re dinner with my brother? What you’re dealing with here is far beyond that.”
“O-ok, so I also haven’t been home much either -”
“Darn right you haven’t, and you know what else? You’re being extremely selfish whenever you dump Jae to be with Changmin. For god’s sake hyung he’s pregnant and this is how you’re gonna treat him?! He’s carrying your children and bearing your children as well. You can’t honestly tell me that neither of them mean anything to you.”
“Of course they do Su, they mean the world to me, and I know I fucked up tonight which is exactly why I want to apologize now” Yunho said trying to dodge Junsu once more.
“I’m sorry, but I can’t let you do that” he stated firmly.
“Junsu please, this is important. Jae can’t take Na Young away from me like this!”
“Yes he can, and since you haven’t been around much she’s been attached to Jae for the longest time now. Of course, I wouldn’t expect you to know that” he snickered.
“Su -”
“I mean it; Jae-hyung doesn’t have any intention on going back to you soon. He doesn’t want to talk to you right now, let alone see you. So I’d appreciate it if you leave because you’re disturbing my niece’s sleep.”
Yunho shook his head at him, feeling completely overwhelmed at the moment, “This can’t be happening. I … I can’t be losing Jae again. It was hard enough the first time.”
"Then you know what? You should’ve kept that in mind before you made the decision to push my brother away. Now if you’ll excuse me I’d like to go back to sleep.”
“Junsu please” he pleaded as he latched on to his arms once more, “convince Jae to talk things out with me, please.”
Junsu saw tears forming in the rim of his eyes now, but no matter how hard this was going to be for Yunho, Junsu knew it was going to be even harder for him and JaeJoong to deal with.
“I’m really sorry hyung, but I’m sticking to my brother’s side on this one. The things you’ve done to him are probably forgivable, but that time to forgive isn’t now. Come back after you’ve learnt you’re lesson.”
And with that said; Junsu turned his back to his brother-in-law and proceeded into his room, making sure to lock the door shut behind him.
Yunho couldn’t believe Junsu was acting this way as well. After all they’ve been through together, and this is the way he acts? By turning his back on him? He was seriously confused at that moment. If only he could turn back time, if only he could’ve been there with Jae and Na Young tonight, if only he could see them one last time…
Yunho honestly didn’t want to go back to that big house of theirs by himself. Without his family besides him, he was nothing. Heck, he came here to get Jae and their baby girl back and said to himself he wasn’t going to leave until they came along with him.
Yunho slowly sunk to the ground and curled himself in a ball. He leaned back against the wall, burying his face between his knees and hands. And just like that, he fell asleep outside Junsu’s apartment door, the closest he’ll get to both JaeJoong and Na Young for a while.
How long though … he’d never know.
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A/N: Yeah, I know this was a pretty long *cough* & boring *cough* update. Sorry about that, its just, a lot of things are going on in my life now and I didn’t have the heart to write this chapter. I don’t know, I haven’t been feeling Yunho’s character lately which is why there’s probably a lack of feelings on his part.
Also, I'm sorry to say but I'll be going on hiatus for a while. I don't want to state the reason why, but I'm really sorry to all my wonderful readers out there. I wish I could say it'll only be for a short time, but it could last for several weeks. If I have time between my chaotic life though I'll most definitely work on an update. But as of now, this will be my last update for a while^^
So until we meet again *waves* =D