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Tonight was...perfect. Ryan came at 6, bearing a dozen PINK roses (aww). We went to dinner at Outback (yummy). I met his parents (scary, but good). He came over and we watched "The Ring" and just hung out for a while. I just want to say that this boy is incredible. Like...everything about his just amazes me. There's always something new, every day, that makes me smile. I know I'm not very religious these days...I mean, hardly at all now. But if there's one thing worth believing for, it's the fact that I found someone who actually, truly makes me happy. We never argue. We can pick around and then talk about something serious, no problem. I feel like I can tell him anything. Sitting here, I'm just smiling. But yet, about to cry because I know what's coming. Saturday I'm gone. And next Friday he's at Campbell - college for the first time. A thousand new people...a thousand new girls. I know that what's gonna happen is gonna happen regardless, as it always has (ahem.), but I'm still so scared. I mean, this boy is awesome. We've talked about school and what might happen, and we both want to try to keep seeing each other, but what if it doesn't work, ya know? I just...I really really care about him and I don't want to lose it so soon. Especially after tonight. He's so ...ahhh. Just wonderful. I'm such a little girl. Look at my flowers!
hehe. I heart him.
hehe. I heart him.