Day..

May 29, 2007 18:58

One step forward, two steps back.

One day at a time.

Please, please just let me find a happy place.

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subienkow May 31 2007, 01:37:44 UTC
And with each day, a little more peace. With each day, a little stronger. With each day, a little less pain. With each day, a little less heartache. Not gone altogether, but a little less. I'm not going to say "it will all be ok". I'm not going to say "it will get better, wait and see". I will say "each day is just one more towards feeling more like who you really are, who you used to be. Of course you are going to get that hit in the stomach feeling, some days more than others, but there will be days when you have that inexplicable sense of peace. Days where the sun seems to be shining just right, where the traffic lights are all green just for you, days where you are not on top of the world, but the world is not on top of you."

OK, so its not a Hallmark card. The sun will rise, the sun will set. At the end of his great journey, Gilgamesh was finally given life's secret by the "Great Ones". It is "they" who decide when we are born and when we die, but the life in-between is ours to do with as we please. Use it wisely. Alright, now I'm stealing from ancient texts, but thousands of years later, life is still ours. Ours to use, use it wisely. Its ok to feel bad, but don't let it control you.

We've already discussed "cookie therapy", maybe now you need to go watch a favorite movie.

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eternalflame4 June 1 2007, 11:46:23 UTC
You're right. There are some days that are awesome, and others where I feel like I'm on the edge of something.

But it really, truly is a one day at a time process. Thank you again for all your kind words, they do help. I really appreciate it. :)

I think renting some happy movies is in order, starting with a movie I've wanted to see maybe, "Happy Feet"?

Time does heal all wounds, and I did speak to him last night, hoping for some closure, so maybe something will come of that.

Thank you so much again, my local friend. :)

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