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[eternaldragon13]

I have messed everything up so bad right now. I am such a mess. I lost a love today. I was only trying to be the good guy. Keep her safe no matter what the cost. I may never redeem myself for what I did. I feel what I did was right. I knew there was a strong possibility of the consequences which I must now endure. However, I cannot help but

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[xochristy]

ugh, you're making me cry. i really hope that one day i'm able to find someone that cares so much for me that he'd give up so much to help me. So this girl must be crazy to not realize what she has. i think that in the long run, there is a huge chance that everything will be better just because you did this for her. she will eventually realize you were only trying to help her. And life will be okay again. And even if it's not, you learned something, right? Never go into any situation/relationship/experience/anything with any expectation other than to learn and grow. Because even if all goes wrong, your one expectation will have been met. And in that you will find comfort.

Hang in there, you know you did the right thing and that's the best you can do for now. Just keep moving on with life, things will work themselves out just the same no matter how much stress, energy or sadness you put into it.

By the way, I realize that I know next to nothing about you (other than you stole my interesting story about Andover!) but I find it extremely admirable that you decided it was more important to help those you love (with great consiquence) than to take the easy way out. There's one positive here, you should at least feel awesome about the decision you made. Hang on to the little things like that when things get hard. From this one entry I feel like I know you much better than any page long survey we have to read aloud in class.