New Year, Same Shtuff!
All right, I have finally made my four new year's resolutions. Here goes it:
Yes, tall orders, but I am going to try my best to fill them this time. I weighed myself yesterday. It was scary, I'm really heavy: 210 pounds. That's not obese, but it's getting there.
What scares me is that the last time I checked I was 190, and I didn't notice all that weight. It was really fast, and just made me realize that I am not as aware about what goes on with my body as I should be. Definitely want to become more wary of what goes inside me and control my consumption.
I think it's mostly sugar. I have been depriving myself of sugar the last two days, and it's killing me. I could use a Nestea right now. :P I know, horrible, but it's the sugar dependency that's killing me. Also, I have worked out for the last two days, 4 hours each day.
I was surprised to see my weight drop two pounds this morning. I am just going to chalk it up to water loss, etc, but still funny to see how fast the weight can fluctuate.
I am going to try and get rid of all the guilt this time around. I find myself feeling guilty about "cheating" and I have decided that that is entirely the wrong mindset for weight loss. It shouldn't be about cheating on something, it should be more permanent. This is going to be a lifestyle change, not a starvation period after which I stop the "cheating" and return to my bad bad habits.
Yes, hopefully that's going to work out. Anyone want to join me in becoming more aware of their bodies and fine tuning their diets? Granted, I am very big, but I am sure a lot of people would like to be more aware of how their body feels.
Speaking of how bodies feel, after working out yesterday, I felt pretty shitty for an hour. But after that, it felt like my muscles were singing. I mean, I was feeling body parts I didn't know existed. I can already imagine what it's like to be fit and have blood well-circulated. It feels so good.
It's going to be an adventure. We shall see.
I am SO spending tomorrow night alone or with family. No drinking or any of that. Really not into that. Plus, everyone else is going to be drunk, so I will feel pretty shitty if I hang out with them.
Maybe next year for that. Now to put this weight loss bit into motion.
- Lose weight (50 poundsish).
- Get a piercing (probably my labret).
- Pick up a second language so I am not so damn unilingual and uncultured.
- Start extensive work on my documentary.
Yes, tall orders, but I am going to try my best to fill them this time. I weighed myself yesterday. It was scary, I'm really heavy: 210 pounds. That's not obese, but it's getting there.
What scares me is that the last time I checked I was 190, and I didn't notice all that weight. It was really fast, and just made me realize that I am not as aware about what goes on with my body as I should be. Definitely want to become more wary of what goes inside me and control my consumption.
I think it's mostly sugar. I have been depriving myself of sugar the last two days, and it's killing me. I could use a Nestea right now. :P I know, horrible, but it's the sugar dependency that's killing me. Also, I have worked out for the last two days, 4 hours each day.
I was surprised to see my weight drop two pounds this morning. I am just going to chalk it up to water loss, etc, but still funny to see how fast the weight can fluctuate.
I am going to try and get rid of all the guilt this time around. I find myself feeling guilty about "cheating" and I have decided that that is entirely the wrong mindset for weight loss. It shouldn't be about cheating on something, it should be more permanent. This is going to be a lifestyle change, not a starvation period after which I stop the "cheating" and return to my bad bad habits.
Yes, hopefully that's going to work out. Anyone want to join me in becoming more aware of their bodies and fine tuning their diets? Granted, I am very big, but I am sure a lot of people would like to be more aware of how their body feels.
Speaking of how bodies feel, after working out yesterday, I felt pretty shitty for an hour. But after that, it felt like my muscles were singing. I mean, I was feeling body parts I didn't know existed. I can already imagine what it's like to be fit and have blood well-circulated. It feels so good.
It's going to be an adventure. We shall see.
I am SO spending tomorrow night alone or with family. No drinking or any of that. Really not into that. Plus, everyone else is going to be drunk, so I will feel pretty shitty if I hang out with them.
Maybe next year for that. Now to put this weight loss bit into motion.