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you don't inspire me to do anything but hurt myself, i've never been the sef destructive kind of person yet as i stand here today thinking of the cold blooded words you've said to me, the only thing i want to do is everything i'll end up regretting.. all you inspire me to do is everything i constantly yell at everybody else for.. i've never followed trends and yet this has become one and suddenly i find myself wanting to fall into everybody else.. you inspire me to do absolutely nothing at all about us you don't provoke even the slightest bit of determination, will or coordination within me all you provoke is disgust.. anger greed comit emotion and disgust.. pure cold hatred towards anything you've ever said that i believed has run dark and cold through my veins, pulsating in my temples like a constant reminder or why i'm back in thi place again.. i loved you the way you made me feel but for what? There was no point to any of the struggle i ever put up, the sweat blood and tears that has poured from me, rushed from my body to the hard sandy cement below has been wasted.. you've wasted me yet as sure as i live and die as sure as i breathe and cry i'll always believe we were meant for each other.. "no boy is ever worth your tears and the one who is won't make you cry" you were honestly worth my tears because the only times you've ever made me cry were all faults of my own..
this sucks.. i haven't written in so long i don't know what to do with my free time on the rare occurences that i'm inspired i find myself sitting there with a blank look on my face because it hasn't registered to pick up a pen and WRITE.. this sucks because i started this and i thought i was doing a good job but i must've taken a wrong turn somewhere because suddenly i find myself looking blankly at the computer screen wondering where i went wrong..
this sucks.. i haven't written in so long i don't know what to do with my free time on the rare occurences that i'm inspired i find myself sitting there with a blank look on my face because it hasn't registered to pick up a pen and WRITE.. this sucks because i started this and i thought i was doing a good job but i must've taken a wrong turn somewhere because suddenly i find myself looking blankly at the computer screen wondering where i went wrong..