LiViNg In A sHaDoW...
Im beginning to understnad life less and less everyday. When i was young, I used to believe that I had actually had the whole world all figured out, but now, as I grow, I know that having thewhole world all figured out is virtually impossible because I now realize that I will never inderstand even the simplest things that life has to offer, like why people love who they love, and why people fight with the ones they love the most.
People used to tell me that i was going to go places, that I was the one that was actually going to be somebody...that somebody that my parents never were, that somebody they long for me to be, and that somebody I have always dreamed of becoming, not just to satisfy myself but also to satisfy my family and those around me. Now it is as if my life has takena 360-degree turn around the sharpest corner of life. I am so confused on everything. I am now beginning to question all of my goals and aspirations in life that I had once set for myself. Life is getting too complicated for me; Im to the point where I am just living day-by-day, completely careless to those around me. Though I feel as if I have everything in life that a girl could ask for-I have alot of friends, family, and a boyfriend that cares forme greatly, I feel more alone than I ever have before. I just have this emptiness inside of mem and i dont know how to fill it.
I say that i am in love, but who really knows what love is? I guess im just another crazy teenager, taking one long ride on the Roller Coaster of life. Where and when will this roller coaster stop? Nobody knows, not even myself, all i know is I am ready to get off now. Some days I just wish that I could be totally ablivious to the world and other days I long for people to be around me.
I used to be a very caring person; I would do anything for anyone but now it's as if I have no cares, and me now worry about what people will think of me if i dont do what is expected. I have stopped living by what other people will think of me and i have started living how i want to live. I nol onger act like the person I am not, I show my true colors and many do not like them. Maybe that is why I am so confused...I dont know who to satisfy...myself, or the people that care about me.
I dont think i will ever understand this roller coaster and why i was chosen to take this ride, right now i dont know if it will ever even come to a complete stop, but until it does I guess I will just keep feeling this way inside!
People used to tell me that i was going to go places, that I was the one that was actually going to be somebody...that somebody that my parents never were, that somebody they long for me to be, and that somebody I have always dreamed of becoming, not just to satisfy myself but also to satisfy my family and those around me. Now it is as if my life has takena 360-degree turn around the sharpest corner of life. I am so confused on everything. I am now beginning to question all of my goals and aspirations in life that I had once set for myself. Life is getting too complicated for me; Im to the point where I am just living day-by-day, completely careless to those around me. Though I feel as if I have everything in life that a girl could ask for-I have alot of friends, family, and a boyfriend that cares forme greatly, I feel more alone than I ever have before. I just have this emptiness inside of mem and i dont know how to fill it.
I say that i am in love, but who really knows what love is? I guess im just another crazy teenager, taking one long ride on the Roller Coaster of life. Where and when will this roller coaster stop? Nobody knows, not even myself, all i know is I am ready to get off now. Some days I just wish that I could be totally ablivious to the world and other days I long for people to be around me.
I used to be a very caring person; I would do anything for anyone but now it's as if I have no cares, and me now worry about what people will think of me if i dont do what is expected. I have stopped living by what other people will think of me and i have started living how i want to live. I nol onger act like the person I am not, I show my true colors and many do not like them. Maybe that is why I am so confused...I dont know who to satisfy...myself, or the people that care about me.
I dont think i will ever understand this roller coaster and why i was chosen to take this ride, right now i dont know if it will ever even come to a complete stop, but until it does I guess I will just keep feeling this way inside!