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I've been working a lot. Trying to figure out everything else in addition to being worried about my Dad, about money and about whether or not I'm going to continue living here, if we can, also wondering if my Dad can go back to his job and if I even want him to. My truck is in the shop, I need more shirts for work, I don't have a lot of money and I need to have extra money in case something were to happen. Cause let's face it, nothing in this life has been nor ever will be free, at not anything that's worth a damn. I know that sounds bleak but I'm being honest. I need money backed in case I were to need to buy groceries or pay rent or fix my truck that isn't covered under warranty, I may need to take on my cell phone bill and soon I'll have to pay for insurance and then there's the college money I need to keep saving up when I start this fall. And I don't have the money to just go do things. It's hard to not be bored but anything I want to do or am able to do costs me something. If I want to go to Easton, anything there is $, movies, stores anything or I just window shop which gets really old, really fast. If I just wanna drive I have to make sure I have gas in the truck. I haven't been getting coffee, or shopping or eating out a lot, it's really hard right now. And I don't want pity or sympathy because I know a lot of you worry about money too. I always have it's just become a daily focus, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere but home right now. I know things will get better and this is just another test I have yet to face. I think maybe I'll write a book about my life and overcoming things and all the crap that's gone on after I become a psychologist, it would make for some great reading. Maddie, wanna team up and write that book like we've talked about? It would be huge! LOL And I could make money off my story. I've found even my hobbies are costing me, photography which is why I'm loving the digital camera but it's not the same as my N65, I love that thing, I'd say if I were to save something in a fire, you know if you could pick one thing to save what would it be thing, I would have a hard choice between my CDs and my Camera. Oh hell I'd grab em both, I'm breaking the rules. But enough of that, other than my truck being in the shop for the A/C and an oil change that I have to pay for, everything is peachy. If anyone is interested in a job, check out Cheryl's call center for 1-800-Flowers, $8/hr. if they're still hiring. I'm gonna start working longer come next week but only by 2 hours, but hey I get paid for it. I know I have to have faith that things will work out, it's just so hard to have faith in everything. But I'll do it and Goodness I will be so happy when Easter is here. Shannon: Wanna come over for Easter dinner?
I got to go to a gig at the Basement with Shannon which was fantastic! We saw 'Pretty Balanced' check em out and I don't care if I've mentioned it before they were really really good, MySpace, take a look. And the Terrors were interesting, another friend, check em too.
I just want to say through all of this, my friends and my family have been here for me and it's the most important thing that I am so thankful for. I love you all and you mean the world to me! Esp. Shannon and Maddie! You guys are true friends...all my love!

Tess

Does anyone know where I could find a second hand violin at? I'm totally serious.