Craziness.. this shit gets random, but please stick w/ me.
Well then. Perhaps ill be going to UVa instead of Clemson.
Full rides are better than 20ish grand a year..
Nothing is final yet, but i myself and quite curious to see where this shit takes me.
Another thing..
I had a striking realization today. Whether it appears that i am sitting on my high throne of glory or not, if i every "speak my mind" on something *sometimes a bit too bluntly..* or try to give advise with situations perplexing friends of mine or anything like that, its not because it makes me feel uber good about myself, or that im nosey, or that i want to fix the world's problems. Oddly enough, it is the ONLY thing that Lee Graham Irvin, Jr. is passionate about. I suppose i have a decent enough personality, and laughter can do wonders, but i would never say i was an Ace at any particular thing.. moreso a jack of all trades. Even so, the 17 and 11 months or so i've been on this bootiful earth i have never been passionate about anything.. no female, no sport, no subject.. nadda. A lot of my friends knew when they came out of the womb what they wanted to do and where they wanted to go to college and the like, but i was never like that. I just kinda went where the wind blew me, but i made the wind very aware i was letting it dictate where i was going. Did i/do i posses the drive to say "fuck you, mr. wind" and go my own direction??? Yes Siree Bob. The problem, however, is that i have never been really influenced to do that with anything i've encountered until i recently started thinking about my God-given talent that hasn't even come close to blossoming to its full potential yet: helping other people. Even with the whole college selection, the only reason i even considered UVa or Tech was because i knew with the whole in-state thing it'd be a lot of money my mom wouldn't have to bone up. Up until now Lee could not have cared less about either school, but the only reason he kept them in mind was because he wanted to help his mom out.
With a lot of my actions, conversations, w/e it may not be entirely too obvious, but religion has played a huge role in my life. Something my mom told me when i was little was when her uncle was on his death bed he took one look at me as a newborn, and some of his last words were that i was going to be a Man of God and that i was going to be a preacher. My mom's father and allll of his siblings, including the forementioned uncle, were ordained ministers and very Godly people. In all honesty, it scares me shitless to even think about this even as i type it.. but i can't really explain why. I guess its overwhelming to think about, i dunno. But i do know that whenever i get in a bad mood its never really gone until i pray about it. Im far from a saint, but i've been told on occation i can say something remotely intelligent that makes sense to someone and i can help them out a bit with w/e crap they are dealing with. I, on the other hand, rarely recieve that "gift" from anyone, but not due to lack of effort from friends and family... simply because it didn't hit home. A lot of times i thought i was bein kinda stuck up or something, but on the rare occations i made a genuine cry for help or somethin what people would tell me only made me feel at ease only if i had already prayed about it, and what is said is usually some kinda conclusion i somewhat had formulated in my own mind w/o making it coherant to myself. Its kinda like the idea of how to feel better needed to be embedded in my brain before i could let that idea be watered by friends or family.
Like i said, a lot of this is rambling, but it kinda dawned on me that my whole "everything happens for a reason" motto applies to me too with the UVa thing. As you can see by the onslaught of text on your friend's page that isn't really going anywhere, i've been thinking a lot and im kinda startin to see that what happens will happen whether i want it to or not and that i have to make the best out of a bad situation as best as i can.
But yea, im done.
If you are the praying type, drop a line for me. Im not in tormoil or anything like that, but 2 requests are always better than one.
If not, hit me up via comment, phone call, pat on the back, friendly word of greating, or somethin. We all need it from time to time, and i myself should do it for others more often.
Full rides are better than 20ish grand a year..
Nothing is final yet, but i myself and quite curious to see where this shit takes me.
Another thing..
I had a striking realization today. Whether it appears that i am sitting on my high throne of glory or not, if i every "speak my mind" on something *sometimes a bit too bluntly..* or try to give advise with situations perplexing friends of mine or anything like that, its not because it makes me feel uber good about myself, or that im nosey, or that i want to fix the world's problems. Oddly enough, it is the ONLY thing that Lee Graham Irvin, Jr. is passionate about. I suppose i have a decent enough personality, and laughter can do wonders, but i would never say i was an Ace at any particular thing.. moreso a jack of all trades. Even so, the 17 and 11 months or so i've been on this bootiful earth i have never been passionate about anything.. no female, no sport, no subject.. nadda. A lot of my friends knew when they came out of the womb what they wanted to do and where they wanted to go to college and the like, but i was never like that. I just kinda went where the wind blew me, but i made the wind very aware i was letting it dictate where i was going. Did i/do i posses the drive to say "fuck you, mr. wind" and go my own direction??? Yes Siree Bob. The problem, however, is that i have never been really influenced to do that with anything i've encountered until i recently started thinking about my God-given talent that hasn't even come close to blossoming to its full potential yet: helping other people. Even with the whole college selection, the only reason i even considered UVa or Tech was because i knew with the whole in-state thing it'd be a lot of money my mom wouldn't have to bone up. Up until now Lee could not have cared less about either school, but the only reason he kept them in mind was because he wanted to help his mom out.
With a lot of my actions, conversations, w/e it may not be entirely too obvious, but religion has played a huge role in my life. Something my mom told me when i was little was when her uncle was on his death bed he took one look at me as a newborn, and some of his last words were that i was going to be a Man of God and that i was going to be a preacher. My mom's father and allll of his siblings, including the forementioned uncle, were ordained ministers and very Godly people. In all honesty, it scares me shitless to even think about this even as i type it.. but i can't really explain why. I guess its overwhelming to think about, i dunno. But i do know that whenever i get in a bad mood its never really gone until i pray about it. Im far from a saint, but i've been told on occation i can say something remotely intelligent that makes sense to someone and i can help them out a bit with w/e crap they are dealing with. I, on the other hand, rarely recieve that "gift" from anyone, but not due to lack of effort from friends and family... simply because it didn't hit home. A lot of times i thought i was bein kinda stuck up or something, but on the rare occations i made a genuine cry for help or somethin what people would tell me only made me feel at ease only if i had already prayed about it, and what is said is usually some kinda conclusion i somewhat had formulated in my own mind w/o making it coherant to myself. Its kinda like the idea of how to feel better needed to be embedded in my brain before i could let that idea be watered by friends or family.
Like i said, a lot of this is rambling, but it kinda dawned on me that my whole "everything happens for a reason" motto applies to me too with the UVa thing. As you can see by the onslaught of text on your friend's page that isn't really going anywhere, i've been thinking a lot and im kinda startin to see that what happens will happen whether i want it to or not and that i have to make the best out of a bad situation as best as i can.
But yea, im done.
If you are the praying type, drop a line for me. Im not in tormoil or anything like that, but 2 requests are always better than one.
If not, hit me up via comment, phone call, pat on the back, friendly word of greating, or somethin. We all need it from time to time, and i myself should do it for others more often.