:(((
I want to go home. :( I've been up since 6, at school since 7:30 and I'm tired and grumpy and I don't feel like putting on a smile and meeting someone. I do want that vacation in the Alps, of course, but I don't know if I want to go with them, I don't like people, anyway. I had asked the guy if they were the type of company that would party all night and he said no, that they mainly go there to ride, but that they don't go to bed right after dinner, either.
I just think it might be uncomfortable, even if I decided not to interact with them too much, I'd still have to worry about... stupid stuff, like not looking ugly in the morning or being polite or crap like that. I sometimes wish I could pull it off, the "I don't care what you think" attitude.
Have you noticed? I always think about all the negative aspects of everything. I never think of the positive, never expect that it could be actually fun.
But, seriously, right now, I just want to go home, shower, watch Heroes and go to sleep. Getting up at 6 again tomorrow, to do yet another presentation first thing in the morning - that makes me wanna bang my head against the wall repeatedly. And right after class I'll be on my way to the Czech Republic, just for the weekend, so I can get my AIDS test done (I need it for the visa for Russia).
Somebody cheer me up, talk to me, please? I seriously hate waiting.
edit: Texted the guy. Said he'd be here within 30 minutes. The PC lab closes in 7 minutes. So then it's hanging around outside for another 20. Awesomeness.
I just think it might be uncomfortable, even if I decided not to interact with them too much, I'd still have to worry about... stupid stuff, like not looking ugly in the morning or being polite or crap like that. I sometimes wish I could pull it off, the "I don't care what you think" attitude.
Have you noticed? I always think about all the negative aspects of everything. I never think of the positive, never expect that it could be actually fun.
But, seriously, right now, I just want to go home, shower, watch Heroes and go to sleep. Getting up at 6 again tomorrow, to do yet another presentation first thing in the morning - that makes me wanna bang my head against the wall repeatedly. And right after class I'll be on my way to the Czech Republic, just for the weekend, so I can get my AIDS test done (I need it for the visa for Russia).
Somebody cheer me up, talk to me, please? I seriously hate waiting.
edit: Texted the guy. Said he'd be here within 30 minutes. The PC lab closes in 7 minutes. So then it's hanging around outside for another 20. Awesomeness.