tranquility is bliss
I just went for a long walk down to the river tressle, because i was feeling overwhelmed with life, and emotions, and school, and leaving, and stuff. I came to the realization while I was recalling thousands of memories all having to do with wandering Farmington and the river late at night that I am ready to go.
I have grown up so much here... and I'm incredibly proud of the person that I am right now, and I'm looking forward to the person that I'm going to become. So, despite the memories and ties and everything that I have here... they are all just memories. Benchmarks and learning experiences. I'm so grateful for the four years that I've spent in this place; the stupid shit I've done, the boys I probably shouldn't have kissed, the many times I've cried, the late night walks, the bonding, the fights, all the adventures I've gone on, the incredible people I've met, those times when I've perhaps gotten a little too silly with alcohol, everything. I'm ready.
Furthermore, I feel really at peace with everything that's been weighing me down lately. I've realized that some things are just not worth the energy and heartache I give them. I have less than 2 weeks left here, and I need to do what I can to enjoy them... and save the drama for your momma! That being said, I think I need to go to sleep. I've got two days left to pump out homework and mentally and physically drain my body (well, more than it already is). 4 hours of sleep and I'm guessing 6 tonight if I can finally sleep this time, and maybe I'll be able to get this stupid paper done!!!
I have grown up so much here... and I'm incredibly proud of the person that I am right now, and I'm looking forward to the person that I'm going to become. So, despite the memories and ties and everything that I have here... they are all just memories. Benchmarks and learning experiences. I'm so grateful for the four years that I've spent in this place; the stupid shit I've done, the boys I probably shouldn't have kissed, the many times I've cried, the late night walks, the bonding, the fights, all the adventures I've gone on, the incredible people I've met, those times when I've perhaps gotten a little too silly with alcohol, everything. I'm ready.
Furthermore, I feel really at peace with everything that's been weighing me down lately. I've realized that some things are just not worth the energy and heartache I give them. I have less than 2 weeks left here, and I need to do what I can to enjoy them... and save the drama for your momma! That being said, I think I need to go to sleep. I've got two days left to pump out homework and mentally and physically drain my body (well, more than it already is). 4 hours of sleep and I'm guessing 6 tonight if I can finally sleep this time, and maybe I'll be able to get this stupid paper done!!!