would you follow me?
if i told you that i lie sometimes
if i told you that i run away
if i told you who i was before
would you follow me?
if i told you that i sneak sometimes
if i told you that i love too much
if i showed you my other side
would you follow me?
cause i'm shedding my skin so you can see my face
i need you to know who i am
so i'm having an off night of sorts. of course, i'm in my slump. i've been in and out for the past couple of days, but for some reason i just can't shake it. it keeps creeping back, and i'm trying to hold back every little thing that's bothering me with my friends, with dan, because it's all stupid and insignificant. idina menzel is really defining my feelings right now, and i love her for it.
school's getting heavier as far as the workload goes. i have a lot of reading to do and i really want to stay caught up with it this semester, because last semester it sucked not reading before exams. but i feel like i have no time to do anything...partially because i'm either online doing random, unproductive things, or i'm out doing something. like tonight. i really probably shouldn't have gone to the hypnotist and should have stayed in and did some homework, to get myself ahead of schedule. but i went anyways, because i wanted to see my friends. because i love them, and i love it here. i just forget that i'm at school too.
i got a note today in my mailbox, congratulating me on dean's list from the dean of the college. it was nice and printed and generic.
other than that, i guess things are alright. i took a walk tonight...2 laps around the campus. it was really refreshing, but still didn't shake my mood. tomorrow night is wednesday night mass at 10:00, and i'm so pumped...i feel like i really need it this week. i really need some quiet time to myself. alone in my room, with no roommate, no music, no aim, no myspace or facebook or webmail or livejournal. just to sit and think. and reflect. and get myself out of this awful funk so that i can be a functioning individual in society and be a normal college kid with my friends and enjoy their company.
i'm going to get into bed and pray. and then sleep, and try to wake up tomorrow renewed.