Incommunicado

[estherchaya]

I've gotten a few inquiries about my well-being on account of the fact that I haven't been posting.  So let's get the most important bit out of the way - yes, I'm okay.  Yes, I'm still pregnant

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[atimesif]

Thanks for posting. I was worried. I hope your upper respiratory infection feels better soon. Is that from the bedrest?

I'm glad that you're still gestating! Objectively that's great news! It's a real milestone that you got through Pesach and you're still pregnant.

At the end of my twin pregnancy I cried every day. I just couldn't TAKE it anymore. I just had it with the pregnancy. I knew that each day INSIDE was equivalent to about two days OUTSIDE in the NICU so I was logically motivated to stay pregnant, but emotionally - forget it. I just wanted my life back.

I remember making a list like:
I want to be able to sleep
I want to be able to go to the bathroom without thinking 5x
I want to be able to eat without getting awful heartburn
I want to be able wear shoes (my feet swelled up)
etc.

You're list is even more basic:
I want to be able to:
eat and drink!
walk, sleep, function without being attached to medical equipment!
in other words, to just LIVE!

One day you will, very soon. But until then you have to just grin (or not) and bear it until you actually bear it :)

Thanks again for checking in with your #5 status.