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I want to thank you all for your support and well wishes in this terible time.
My friends have told me that it might help if I commit my experience to paper and then move forward with my life. It has taken a while for me to bring myself to write it down but I think that it is for the best.
After I finished filming This Time Of Keeps I was five months along and I hadn't felt the baby kick yet, I thought this was strange considering most of my girlfriends who have had babies told me that they had already felt their's kick by this time. So I went to see my Obstetrician, he seemed unconcerned and allowed me to travel with Ben and our friends Janet Blair and Louis Busch for Ben's Birthday.
When I stepped out of the car my water broke, I went up to my room with Janny and called my doctor. The men went to the bar, they couldn't possibly understand the seriousness of my situation.
I can't believe the conversation I had with my doctor. He seemed not to be effected by the fact that a five months pregnant woman has gone into labor!
Janny took me to the hospital with they gave me a caudal block, everything from my neck down was numb. I watched as they removed what had been a girl from my body, in pieces.
My baby had been dead inside me for over a month, my doctor didn't even know when I went to see him!
There was a very dangerous possibility for infection and infertility, but luckily I managed to come out considerably healthy.
Ben didn't even get to the hospital until much later into the night, he had been playing golf with lou and had been drinking, of course. He seemed not to have a sensitive bone in his body, he was just glowing about the golf and the drinks but the fact that our baby was dead didn't seem to faze him.
I've been resting up and I've found a new doctor, I'm even going to start a new film in a week, On an Island with you. I just hope that work can help me keep my mind off of my marriage for now.
My friends have told me that it might help if I commit my experience to paper and then move forward with my life. It has taken a while for me to bring myself to write it down but I think that it is for the best.
After I finished filming This Time Of Keeps I was five months along and I hadn't felt the baby kick yet, I thought this was strange considering most of my girlfriends who have had babies told me that they had already felt their's kick by this time. So I went to see my Obstetrician, he seemed unconcerned and allowed me to travel with Ben and our friends Janet Blair and Louis Busch for Ben's Birthday.
When I stepped out of the car my water broke, I went up to my room with Janny and called my doctor. The men went to the bar, they couldn't possibly understand the seriousness of my situation.
I can't believe the conversation I had with my doctor. He seemed not to be effected by the fact that a five months pregnant woman has gone into labor!
Janny took me to the hospital with they gave me a caudal block, everything from my neck down was numb. I watched as they removed what had been a girl from my body, in pieces.
My baby had been dead inside me for over a month, my doctor didn't even know when I went to see him!
There was a very dangerous possibility for infection and infertility, but luckily I managed to come out considerably healthy.
Ben didn't even get to the hospital until much later into the night, he had been playing golf with lou and had been drinking, of course. He seemed not to have a sensitive bone in his body, he was just glowing about the golf and the drinks but the fact that our baby was dead didn't seem to faze him.
I've been resting up and I've found a new doctor, I'm even going to start a new film in a week, On an Island with you. I just hope that work can help me keep my mind off of my marriage for now.