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hey livejournal, how are u
i have totally been ignoring you, havn't felt the need to chat for a while.
BUT
k, livejournal - for probably the first time in my life i actually want a boyfriend. k cheezey... buut yeah umm im just sick of being and acting the way i do/am. my mom told me the other day if i keep running around spitting and fighting and bein a drunk ill never find anyone but thats the way i am and i dont want to change for anyone soo i guess im in a little predicament. i like to think that some day ill find somone who can handle me and actually keep up but i guess thats just wishful thinking. SO what do i do... i enjoy being who i am ... why cant i find somone who appreciates that? well.. somone im actually interested in :-P blaaaaaaaah
frustration, sorry...
its just now especially i really need somone to hold onto. its been a little rough lately and it would be nice to have some balance. not only because of that though. i just feel like i deserve it, for once. I DESERVE IT, for sure.
um im hanging out with an old friend tomorrow, kindof excited it came out of nowhere i hadn't spoken to him in like 6 months and i randomly saw him tonite, i won't lie it was really nice and refreshing so im actually really really excited about hanging out with him tomorrow - probably cuz he like just recently broke up with his gf and we left off really akwardly and i feel like something needs to be mended, i hurt him :( umm but he really is a great guy and i know he cares alot about me and its just weird that he just appeared after all this time....
K OOOR MAYBE IM DESPERATE AND THINKING WEIRD...
who knows, my minds not right, its late, i need sleep, my eyes hurt.......
i have totally been ignoring you, havn't felt the need to chat for a while.
BUT
k, livejournal - for probably the first time in my life i actually want a boyfriend. k cheezey... buut yeah umm im just sick of being and acting the way i do/am. my mom told me the other day if i keep running around spitting and fighting and bein a drunk ill never find anyone but thats the way i am and i dont want to change for anyone soo i guess im in a little predicament. i like to think that some day ill find somone who can handle me and actually keep up but i guess thats just wishful thinking. SO what do i do... i enjoy being who i am ... why cant i find somone who appreciates that? well.. somone im actually interested in :-P blaaaaaaaah
frustration, sorry...
its just now especially i really need somone to hold onto. its been a little rough lately and it would be nice to have some balance. not only because of that though. i just feel like i deserve it, for once. I DESERVE IT, for sure.
um im hanging out with an old friend tomorrow, kindof excited it came out of nowhere i hadn't spoken to him in like 6 months and i randomly saw him tonite, i won't lie it was really nice and refreshing so im actually really really excited about hanging out with him tomorrow - probably cuz he like just recently broke up with his gf and we left off really akwardly and i feel like something needs to be mended, i hurt him :( umm but he really is a great guy and i know he cares alot about me and its just weird that he just appeared after all this time....
K OOOR MAYBE IM DESPERATE AND THINKING WEIRD...
who knows, my minds not right, its late, i need sleep, my eyes hurt.......