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[estefenia]

Totally just have to get this off my chest....talked to someone the other night, wasnt really expecting anything out of the conversation other then just hey how ya doin what ya up to but he proceeded to tell me that he wanted to apologize for the ways he had treated me in the past. The past being like 2 years and the way he treated me....well just everything bad you could really imagine. So I listened to him, he didnt really get too indepth on what exactly he was apologizing for, no certain situation, just in general for the way he blew me off repeatedly after we seemed to be pretty cool and the ways he handled situations. So I said ok thanks...woulda been nice to hear this a year ago but thanks. He tells me that he thought he might have acted the way he did because he started to have feelings for me and was pushing me away. Can anyone explain that to me?!?! I hear that reason all the time but it just doesnt make any sense? Maybe its just me but if I am starting to like someone and have strong feelings for them I am definately gonna go with it not turn n run leavin them hurt. But whatever. IT really doesnt mean all that much now. I mean he was saying stuff like how I never deserved to be treated the way he treated me...when he saw me a few weekends ago he got really happy and he didnt know if it was just cuz he hadnt seen me in a long time or if some feelings were coming back and he realized he missed hanging out with me. I dunno....it doesnt mean much but seeings how I'm a girl who hasnt had a relationship in YEARS shit like this make me think. But I gotta tell myself I gave him not one not two but at least three chances and he didnt prove to be a very trusting person. Anyways...stuff like this happens, I have a conversation with a guy like this and the wheels start a turnin n I cant stop wonderin what could be......
BLAH
And that is the most exciting thing thats happenin with me.
Working EVERYDAY...cant say I'm making lotsa money
NEED to move back to GR, I dunno why I think I need to but I just do!!
NEEEEEEEED to find a REAL JOB! I hate resume writing :(
I really love my cat :)
Birthday is next weekend and I will definately be in the city with the best people eva!!!