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Ugh today is one of those days. Feelin not so....good. Not like sick but just like...down. Wouldn't go as far as saying depressed cuz I am not a depressed person but I dunno just not satisfied I guess. Watched A Walk in the Clouds-cheezy, and now listenin to sad sappy music. Ha way to bring yourself up Steph.
But I have to say I had a good weekend. Being in my apartment with all of my roommates havin boyfriends can get a lil "depressing" but like this weekend I hung out with single girls and it made me feel better. And these girls are awesome and hot so I know there can't be anything wrong with us...its guys they just dont know something good in front of them!!
I was doin good with this whole "boy" thing too. Realized that nothin was gonna come of us and he wasn't gonna suddenly give me the attention and respect I deserve. So I was like alright whatever when he would randomly call me at all hours of the night. I know what he's about. But this weekend I kinda slipped and I called him probably...3 too many times. Just cuz I was bored and wanted someone-a guy-to hang out with. Oh well...I just need a guy to hang out with. I have always had a guy friend and its been a long time since I have one. I dont need to have it be anything more then friends either. I mean sure cuddle buddies would be nice ;-) but not necessary. So yea just kinda gettin impatient. I really just wanna meet someone that I click with and can be cool with and not have to worry about all the shit I end up worrying about. Doesnt have to end up as a relationship just someone I can get butterflies about :-) Ok done with that...
So superbowl will be spent at big boy. Super! Not that I really care that much about the game...haven't kept up on the teams this year anyways. But just sucky knowing other people are havin a good time...finding a ligit excuse to drink! ah which leads me to something else I need to consider. Not drinking so much. Ok so I don't drink like every night of the week or even every weekend. I just wish I could go to a party or to the bar and have fun without drinking but I can't. I mean I dont have a miserable time but its hard being the sober one with drunk people plus I am so much more open...agressive when I have been drinking which CAN be bad but not all the time. I just say things that I normally wouldnt say and I talk to people I wouldnt normally talk to. IT does get me in trouble when I call people up and either bitch at them for being assholes or I tell them they should come over. Ooops. Yea so I am gonna work on toning down the drinking. If I do drink I will drink enough to get a good buzz. Plus I cant really afford this habit.
Oh my gosh freakin Valentines day is next monday. Gosh how I hate that day, always have, even when I had a boyfriend. Think its a really rediculous "holiday" But I hate it even more now that I have no one to spend it with. Sounds like a good reaon to get drunk...shit no I Can't GAWD!
Ok getting close to depressed NOW! oh and to add to it gotta spend my night at the shit hole...gotta go. Shit.
But I have to say I had a good weekend. Being in my apartment with all of my roommates havin boyfriends can get a lil "depressing" but like this weekend I hung out with single girls and it made me feel better. And these girls are awesome and hot so I know there can't be anything wrong with us...its guys they just dont know something good in front of them!!
I was doin good with this whole "boy" thing too. Realized that nothin was gonna come of us and he wasn't gonna suddenly give me the attention and respect I deserve. So I was like alright whatever when he would randomly call me at all hours of the night. I know what he's about. But this weekend I kinda slipped and I called him probably...3 too many times. Just cuz I was bored and wanted someone-a guy-to hang out with. Oh well...I just need a guy to hang out with. I have always had a guy friend and its been a long time since I have one. I dont need to have it be anything more then friends either. I mean sure cuddle buddies would be nice ;-) but not necessary. So yea just kinda gettin impatient. I really just wanna meet someone that I click with and can be cool with and not have to worry about all the shit I end up worrying about. Doesnt have to end up as a relationship just someone I can get butterflies about :-) Ok done with that...
So superbowl will be spent at big boy. Super! Not that I really care that much about the game...haven't kept up on the teams this year anyways. But just sucky knowing other people are havin a good time...finding a ligit excuse to drink! ah which leads me to something else I need to consider. Not drinking so much. Ok so I don't drink like every night of the week or even every weekend. I just wish I could go to a party or to the bar and have fun without drinking but I can't. I mean I dont have a miserable time but its hard being the sober one with drunk people plus I am so much more open...agressive when I have been drinking which CAN be bad but not all the time. I just say things that I normally wouldnt say and I talk to people I wouldnt normally talk to. IT does get me in trouble when I call people up and either bitch at them for being assholes or I tell them they should come over. Ooops. Yea so I am gonna work on toning down the drinking. If I do drink I will drink enough to get a good buzz. Plus I cant really afford this habit.
Oh my gosh freakin Valentines day is next monday. Gosh how I hate that day, always have, even when I had a boyfriend. Think its a really rediculous "holiday" But I hate it even more now that I have no one to spend it with. Sounds like a good reaon to get drunk...shit no I Can't GAWD!
Ok getting close to depressed NOW! oh and to add to it gotta spend my night at the shit hole...gotta go. Shit.