eating update.
So ...I feel a little bit better after my last post. My therapy session went sort of okayish, but I think she noticed some weight loss, didn't overtly broach the subject but it was implied, she did probe a bit ...I know that I've already lost a significant amount of weight ...I still can't bring myself to eat enough as I should, let alone a binge quota ...whiiiich ...doesn't really know no boundaries ...my restriction quota is relatively high, but reasonable (try telling my brain that in 3 weeks time) I'm certain it will become less over the weeks ...only eating a bowl of high protein muesli (5 different grains) and like a small salad in the afternoon, other than that ...water & coffee. Have not purged once since I stopped bp'ing about a week or more ago. It's bound to happen soon though, but I know I can recover from it. I'm anticipating it to happen sooner or later ...I know it's just my bodys reaction to the sudden change of eating behavior. Been cycling in the mornings ...(4 am, I kid you not). So I need to plan my groceries for this week sometime today or tomorrow. Also, I haven't had a single drink since my second last post! I feel so much mental clarity ...have been taking a crapload of supplements to help with the liver (milk thistle) ...drinking aloe vera juice to cleanse my insides ...taking a multi ...getting pretty obsessive about pseudo "health" again ...I suppose it allows me to convince myself I am only "dieting" and being healthy, therefore I can give out this impression to others. Shame. Sigh. Well...
Talk to you later, dear diary.
Talk to you later, dear diary.