Dark and Stormy Nights
The drive home tonight was pretty intense. The rain and hail were so thick that most people pulled off the highway to wait it out. The lightning was even crazier than the rain. I couldnt help but feel like God was drawing me a picture.
I think He intends to obliterate my card house again. Or make me do it myself. It has been almost three years since I have really seen his scalpel waving, but I cant seem to hide from it now.
I dont know what exactly He is cutting for, but I do know that He wont speak to me except to remind me of some things I have to do, and He wont let me sleep at night until I promise to do them. I am really pretty scared.
I might just be being a little too dramatic, but I have the sense that this is only the beginning, and that He is really going to cut deep.
But He keeps reminding me that the only thing I can ever afford to be really scared of, the only thing that will ever really hurt everything and help nothing is to refuse to obey Him.
Im not going anywhere or anything, I just really have to face up to some stuff.
What I hate most is that it is always the people who I care about the most that get most hurt by my brokenness.
Wish me luck in surgery, the only hope I have is that the doc knows what He is doing, and that its good.
This family means a lot to me. Ill try not to act too goofy. Please pray that God will protect people from my flailing.
Hebrews 12. The whole thing. Every single word. For seriously.
I think He intends to obliterate my card house again. Or make me do it myself. It has been almost three years since I have really seen his scalpel waving, but I cant seem to hide from it now.
I dont know what exactly He is cutting for, but I do know that He wont speak to me except to remind me of some things I have to do, and He wont let me sleep at night until I promise to do them. I am really pretty scared.
I might just be being a little too dramatic, but I have the sense that this is only the beginning, and that He is really going to cut deep.
But He keeps reminding me that the only thing I can ever afford to be really scared of, the only thing that will ever really hurt everything and help nothing is to refuse to obey Him.
Im not going anywhere or anything, I just really have to face up to some stuff.
What I hate most is that it is always the people who I care about the most that get most hurt by my brokenness.
Wish me luck in surgery, the only hope I have is that the doc knows what He is doing, and that its good.
This family means a lot to me. Ill try not to act too goofy. Please pray that God will protect people from my flailing.
Hebrews 12. The whole thing. Every single word. For seriously.