I"m so confused
There are a lot of things about this life I do not understand. How come only the evil corupt people get all the power? You can no longer choose the good person anymore, just the lesser of the evils. Why does the world always seem out to get us? It's as though now matter how hard we try, it's never hard enough. It's the lucky bastards who happen to be in the right place and the right time with the right knowledge that succeed. Does the universe delight in seeing its inhabitants suffer? The thing that gets me the most though is God. I'm not trying to sound anit-religion or anything. I'm doing my best to be a good Christian, and understand my place in God's plan, but how do I do this when it would seem as though God would put exactly what I've been looking for right in front of my face, yet not show me the means to get there? It's as though there is a bottomless pit in between me and my goal. It's so close I can taste it and feel it, though it's not close enough. Is faith the only way I can bridge that gap? Maybe I should stop plotting long enough and let God show me how to get there, if I'm really meant to be there. It's just so hard. Everyone wants a decision on school, and they want it now, including the school, and the truth is I just don't know, and on the other matter, I hope someone out there is laughing at my situation, for I certainly am not. God, Can you still hear me?