You can't change the past, but you can change the future
The past week's been pretty bad. I started school last Monday. My classes are actually enjoyable. However, I did find out that I overdrew on my bank account. Needless to say, once more I tried to get out of my own mess by myself, and once again I made things worth. I had a huge fight with my parents and I literally went off the deep end. Last Wednesday, I went off the deep end and nearly killed myself. I just couldn't handle it any longer and I saw no way out. My only saving grace was that I went to see Three Doors Down on Wednesday, and they played "Away From the Sun" which pretty much summed up exactly how I felt. I had a panic attack and a total break down. I didn't know what to do, and in times like that I called Brandon. I think I really freaked him out, because the next day he sent me an e-mail telling me how much he cared for me and how he loved me as a best friend, which by the way, is not printed on paper and hidden safely in a book because I know that will NEVER happen again. Well, to make a long story somewhat shorter, I have sinced talked with my parents, and we are going to work together to try and change some things. I was just so terrified at the thought of having to try one again and change it on my own. It's slowly getting better. I still have my down days when I wonder why I even bother, but I guess we all have those days. It's whether or not you stay down that makes the difference.