AllElseFailed
At the end of the day, I can't live without this.
Why God is making me find out all this now, I don't know. Perhaps to remind me that no matter what, christmas is about Him, not the people around. To show me the reason why He came, not for acceptance, but just to love, whether or not He was loved.
I'm finding it so tough to be like Him. I just want to scream and curse at the world and withdraw into a hole. Avoid humans at all costs and just rot away on my own.
But I know I shouldn't. So here continues the giving and giving and wishing for something more.
I've never hated the christmas period before.
I think this year I do.
Why God is making me find out all this now, I don't know. Perhaps to remind me that no matter what, christmas is about Him, not the people around. To show me the reason why He came, not for acceptance, but just to love, whether or not He was loved.
I'm finding it so tough to be like Him. I just want to scream and curse at the world and withdraw into a hole. Avoid humans at all costs and just rot away on my own.
But I know I shouldn't. So here continues the giving and giving and wishing for something more.
I've never hated the christmas period before.
I think this year I do.