Green of Trees

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Jealousy.
Somebody slap me.

Tinges of green surface as I try hard to forget the rejection.
Patches of green form relentlessly as I fight to keep them down.

It still hurts after so long.
Mayhaps if I didn't know how disappointed you are it wouldn't hurt.
Mayhaps if I made you happy at least once I'd be better.

Mayhaps I've gotta find out how to live for me.

I'm happy.

But is that enough?