sad...
my marriage is falling apart. I dont think I'll ever be the same. I miss old friends and old hang outs. I regret a lot from my past Music and shows were the one thing that kept me sane and going for my goal. But now I've lost that completely, despite that my marriage is coming to a nasty ending I know that I'll always have my son to be there and tell me everyday I LOVE YOU MOMMY. TO ALL MY FRIENDS OVER THE YEARS IM SORRY THAT I PUSHED YOU AWAY I SEE NOW THAT FRIENDS ARE THE ONLY THING REAL I HOPE IN TIME AS THE WORLD WATCHES ME SUFFER EVENTUALLY MY FRIENDS WILL COME BACK AND WANT TO BE APART OF MY LIFE. IM SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO WAS CLOSE TO ME AND I PUSHED THEM AWAY TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO NEVER TRUELY LOVED ME.. MY DEEPEST APOLOGY GOES OUT TO YOU.ESPECIALLY PEOPLE LIKE SARAH AND NATALIE EVEN ERIN.. THE PEOPLE I HUNG AROUND WITH THE MOST.. IM SORRY..