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[essex666]

two parts of songs ive wrote over the last week or so. go ahead and judge them because ive decided i dont like them nor do i care for the way i wrote them, its not like me to write something so emotional sounding yet so shallow. go ahead and comment. ill be looking forward to looking at them. their gay and droning anyway

~and i hope your happy
and i hope this is the end
i hope i can forget this
before this begins
i think i might be happy
i think therefore i am
if you find it in your heart to forgive me
hide it agian
i never wanted your sympathy
but ill take what i can get
i never wanted forgiveness
it makes it hard to live
and if i must go on
its easier to die
my horizon darkens and fades
your sun will continue to rise
i'd thank you for this
but i wouldent know how or why
if you listen to these words they will suck you in
if you close your mind you build a prison that you trap yourself in
so let the emotion flow
its the only path i know

your so young and nieve
and your teaching me
i couldent ask for a better friend
i know where this started
tell me, where does this end
i guess ill wait and see
ive been haunted for so long
and looking for the cause
but the ghost was you
sending shivers down my spine
with your influncial words

ive been waiting to get over this for so long
i act like i want you to save me
and for the first time maybe i do
i want somthing that i cant have
and i thought i was so close
dont get me wrong,
shes a lucky girl
dont get me wrong
yeah this isnt my world
and im begining to wonder if these are even my words
because the more i see you
the more i become somthing that i never thought i could be
the more i think, the more i lose what i wanted to be

~why do you have to be so damn right
why do i have to be so damn nieve
i swear its just not fair,
i just dont see how this is fair,
tell me, how do i care about something like this
how do i get lost in something i know so well
i never expected to care