oh, no-no. it doesn't matter.

[essere_amava]

i actually miss having a schedule--the blocked out squares of time where i knew i could count on things. that way i could afford to be spontaneous and do stupid things. but now, i'm being pulled in fifty different directions and trying to get some handle on what i remember normalcy was my first two years in high school. it's like banging my head against marble, but i sort of like it.

in summary:

what i like:
taking classes that i like
taking classes i don't have to go to all the time
being in a service sorority
having a roommate with a boyfriend off campus
airconditioning that doesn't involve mold
no curfews

what i do without:
straight boys in teal shorts
straight boy humor
straight boys with croakies/sperry's/COCKs gear
i-pod cults
the GREEK system
general attitude of laziness

part of me wishes that i had attended a slightly more prestigious university, that i'd known i wanted to study history. maybe if i REALLY like scotland next year i can just stay, for-ev-er. i wish that i remembered how to act around these sort of people, it's like putting training wheels back on a bike years after you've learned to ride it. i guess this is what normalcy feels like, right?

i refuse to be your average kid.