Soon I'm gonna feel even more of a failure than I feel now. Shit my English bad. Damn workplace
I'm qutting pods.
I'm gonna withdraw from AUT.
I reckon I won't even sit the exams. God, I hate pods.
I still don't know what I want to do, but I think I'll probably go do some random papers in AU instead. They better accept me back.
I need to figure out what the hell I want to do. There's nothing I want to do in particular.
I only know that I hate pods.
Nads said to me... I should start studying hardout and go to the exams... not because it's so I have this year's second semester papers on my belt too, but because it'd would be a great story for them to tell future first year pods.
"You know... this paper is like the deciding paper. people can't get to second year because of this stupid paper since they flunk it so badly... but there was this girl in our first year... she aced everything even though she slacked all year..................... and then she turned around and withdrew from the programme. Yeah, fuck her."
Lol. Despite the small factor she over looked.... I haven't opened the textbook properly. I haven't done the first week's homework, let alone done any of this semester's reading. I've only paid attention (sorry, it wasn't full attention the entire two hours) for ONE of my lectures and that was last wednesday.
The other lectures, I either texted through them, slept through them, read other books through them, or ate through them.
Yeah, it's not likely I'd pass, and if I did, it's not likely I'd pass very well.
Sigh. I wish I still lived and breathed study, but really, I have no interest in anything as a whole. I only wanted to do physio because of one paper and that was theraputic touch. Everyone in physio looks hot and it seems they all get nekkid for that paper... since it's hands on. lol.
I don't have the heart to face my year coordinator... he's been going on and on about how everyone needs to pass and go onto second year because there's a shortage of pods. Shortage my ass, the third years all say they can't GET a job because THERE ARE NO JOBS.
SIghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I still hate pods. I HAVE NO PASSION FOR ANYTHING. other than Nishiki... but there is no future there. Sorry, my dear extended family...
I watched Akai Ito last Friday (I was supposed to "catch up my work"). Then I started watching Gokusen since I hate uni so much. AND GOOD LORD SHE HAS SO MUCH PASSION FOR IT. It made me go shit. So I better do something about this. If I stay on in pods, I'll just end up wasting two more years (possibly more) and then I probably wouldn't even settle down and be a pod before I jump into another degree. Even if I did be a pod................. I'd be a shitty one because I wouldn't care enough for it.
I'm gonna look into criminology or forensics. Perhaps linguistics or something random next year. I'll do other random things otherwise I'll never find out what I really want to do for the rest of my life (possibly something other than bum around). I should aim to be as ~*~*~passionate~*~*~ as Yankumi.
I'm tempted to go do the same foundation course pandatheone is doing now. But they'd probably reject me cuz I fail so badly at art things lol.
Urgh also, K-sama came back from HK this weekend. He bought with him a HK dude. Lol HK-san. They were learning the ways of NZ counterparts. K-sama kept trying to do "lowly" duties. Such as... taking the dishes back... and um... washing them.
Dynamic Duo was like: NO! DONT YOU DARE LET HIM TOUCH ANYTHING. THIS IS THE BOSS MAN. THE BIG BOSS! He's not allowed to do anything!
On Friday, he wore glasses instead of his usual contacts. they were the black frame ones. He was like: how do I look? and I lol'd and said Great, SEXY. So Kamisama lol'd too. If my brain was fast enough... i'd have said something like "hot, the hottest thing to come out of Japan since wasabi." ...or shichimi.
Man when Ksama first talked to me (I think he forgot I existed... since it's been such a long time since he saw me), he kept talking to me in Japanese. To the point where I couldn't reply without using Japanese because that would just be downright RUDE TO BIG BOSS. SAMA. DESU.
He was very... keen to introduce me to HKsama. He was like: PLZ TALK TO HIm... IN CANTON-GO. I lol'd so hard. Canton-go. Lololol. LOL.
AH, I introduced AtsuchanSAN to marmite flavoured chips. He was like omgUUUUUUUUUUMAi! And he ate the entire packet without realising and the look on his face was hilarious. He was all DDDDDDDDDDDD= gomennnnnnnnn emichannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. T__________T BUT I ATE THEM ALLLLLLllllllll .___________.
I lol'd even more. yeh, I'm gonna get everyone in Nishiki (OKAY THE N WORD NEEDS TO BE REPLACED. IT SHALL NOW BE NSK) addicted to marmite.
Oh yesterday, I took HKsan to Botany mall to walk around since it was his last day in Botany. He was amusing in a wtf tourist way. We made it back in time for them to start work. Yeh, I drove too fast. I tried to get him to buy marmite as a souvenir, but I think he chickened out.
Oh for the two days... we ate curry. First day was curry rice, second day was curry noodles. ohman NSK made me obese. Next Monday night, they would like to go to this dessert buffet. I lol'd hard because it's someplace I really wanted to see last year. Yumichan was like Shinsama is KANARAZU GO!
Man, I really need to cut down my time with them... or up my time speaking English. I've been saying ridiculous sentences. Like really bad broken English. Today I saw this meal and it was a lot of food and I said to nads WOW, that's so lotS deshou! And nads looked at me and lol'd. She could see what I meant. =_= I was like holy shit and the only way I could think of to rephrase it was: "that is such a big amount".
R-sama came the last few days. He's funny. He keeps changing languages when he talks to me. =_= before it was canton-go and now he's using mandarin. Before that... he tried to nihongo with me.
I'm gonna withdraw from AUT.
I reckon I won't even sit the exams. God, I hate pods.
I still don't know what I want to do, but I think I'll probably go do some random papers in AU instead. They better accept me back.
I need to figure out what the hell I want to do. There's nothing I want to do in particular.
I only know that I hate pods.
Nads said to me... I should start studying hardout and go to the exams... not because it's so I have this year's second semester papers on my belt too, but because it'd would be a great story for them to tell future first year pods.
"You know... this paper is like the deciding paper. people can't get to second year because of this stupid paper since they flunk it so badly... but there was this girl in our first year... she aced everything even though she slacked all year..................... and then she turned around and withdrew from the programme. Yeah, fuck her."
Lol. Despite the small factor she over looked.... I haven't opened the textbook properly. I haven't done the first week's homework, let alone done any of this semester's reading. I've only paid attention (sorry, it wasn't full attention the entire two hours) for ONE of my lectures and that was last wednesday.
The other lectures, I either texted through them, slept through them, read other books through them, or ate through them.
Yeah, it's not likely I'd pass, and if I did, it's not likely I'd pass very well.
Sigh. I wish I still lived and breathed study, but really, I have no interest in anything as a whole. I only wanted to do physio because of one paper and that was theraputic touch. Everyone in physio looks hot and it seems they all get nekkid for that paper... since it's hands on. lol.
I don't have the heart to face my year coordinator... he's been going on and on about how everyone needs to pass and go onto second year because there's a shortage of pods. Shortage my ass, the third years all say they can't GET a job because THERE ARE NO JOBS.
SIghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I still hate pods. I HAVE NO PASSION FOR ANYTHING. other than Nishiki... but there is no future there. Sorry, my dear extended family...
I watched Akai Ito last Friday (I was supposed to "catch up my work"). Then I started watching Gokusen since I hate uni so much. AND GOOD LORD SHE HAS SO MUCH PASSION FOR IT. It made me go shit. So I better do something about this. If I stay on in pods, I'll just end up wasting two more years (possibly more) and then I probably wouldn't even settle down and be a pod before I jump into another degree. Even if I did be a pod................. I'd be a shitty one because I wouldn't care enough for it.
I'm gonna look into criminology or forensics. Perhaps linguistics or something random next year. I'll do other random things otherwise I'll never find out what I really want to do for the rest of my life (possibly something other than bum around). I should aim to be as ~*~*~passionate~*~*~ as Yankumi.
I'm tempted to go do the same foundation course pandatheone is doing now. But they'd probably reject me cuz I fail so badly at art things lol.
Urgh also, K-sama came back from HK this weekend. He bought with him a HK dude. Lol HK-san. They were learning the ways of NZ counterparts. K-sama kept trying to do "lowly" duties. Such as... taking the dishes back... and um... washing them.
Dynamic Duo was like: NO! DONT YOU DARE LET HIM TOUCH ANYTHING. THIS IS THE BOSS MAN. THE BIG BOSS! He's not allowed to do anything!
On Friday, he wore glasses instead of his usual contacts. they were the black frame ones. He was like: how do I look? and I lol'd and said Great, SEXY. So Kamisama lol'd too. If my brain was fast enough... i'd have said something like "hot, the hottest thing to come out of Japan since wasabi." ...or shichimi.
Man when Ksama first talked to me (I think he forgot I existed... since it's been such a long time since he saw me), he kept talking to me in Japanese. To the point where I couldn't reply without using Japanese because that would just be downright RUDE TO BIG BOSS. SAMA. DESU.
He was very... keen to introduce me to HKsama. He was like: PLZ TALK TO HIm... IN CANTON-GO. I lol'd so hard. Canton-go. Lololol. LOL.
AH, I introduced AtsuchanSAN to marmite flavoured chips. He was like omgUUUUUUUUUUMAi! And he ate the entire packet without realising and the look on his face was hilarious. He was all DDDDDDDDDDDD= gomennnnnnnnn emichannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. T__________T BUT I ATE THEM ALLLLLLllllllll .___________.
I lol'd even more. yeh, I'm gonna get everyone in Nishiki (OKAY THE N WORD NEEDS TO BE REPLACED. IT SHALL NOW BE NSK) addicted to marmite.
Oh yesterday, I took HKsan to Botany mall to walk around since it was his last day in Botany. He was amusing in a wtf tourist way. We made it back in time for them to start work. Yeh, I drove too fast. I tried to get him to buy marmite as a souvenir, but I think he chickened out.
Oh for the two days... we ate curry. First day was curry rice, second day was curry noodles. ohman NSK made me obese. Next Monday night, they would like to go to this dessert buffet. I lol'd hard because it's someplace I really wanted to see last year. Yumichan was like Shinsama is KANARAZU GO!
Man, I really need to cut down my time with them... or up my time speaking English. I've been saying ridiculous sentences. Like really bad broken English. Today I saw this meal and it was a lot of food and I said to nads WOW, that's so lotS deshou! And nads looked at me and lol'd. She could see what I meant. =_= I was like holy shit and the only way I could think of to rephrase it was: "that is such a big amount".
R-sama came the last few days. He's funny. He keeps changing languages when he talks to me. =_= before it was canton-go and now he's using mandarin. Before that... he tried to nihongo with me.