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[essenceofsweat]

i feel like i need to get away.
to get away from the shit that constantly dwells on my mind and transforms me into a big rain cloud.
i hate life right now.
i fucking hate it
and there's nothing i can do to avoid my problems.
i can only deal with them and right now i can't.

i would love to say out of sight, out of mind
but that's impossible.
i see you all the time.
and even when i don't see you, i think about you.
i hate this obsessive/addictive personality with a passion.

i am out of cigarettes. i smoked two packs in like four days.
damn alcohol.

i want some meaning for this life that is void of anything right now.